нет. я знаю. я не призрак, и даже не тень.
я никогда прежде настолько реально себя не чувствовал.
на столько настоящим. живым.
именно.

я так устал за все это время. "ты очень усталый человек..." да.
это так.

но слова этой песни.
слова этой песни...:

I know it's hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don't want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you're human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand, Please, don't cry now

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim that
Divine purpose blesses them
That's not what I believe, it doesn't matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, I'm still not sure
What I do know is, to use the world is different
As we are to the world but, I guess you would know that


(c) VNV Nation - Illusion



я никуда не исчезал.
я просто заснул...как в сказках.
хочется за долгое время реальности и шагов по мокрым лужам... чувствовать этот холод.
хочется снега в волосах и воспоминаний о себе.

я не исчез.