Scared I am.
Heart still beats irregularly. Was really close to death last night. Pulse rate 50 at one moment.
Took an appointment with a cardiologist tomorrow. Not because he can help it. But because I want to know how long do I got.
It is a full moon. Will I see the daylight?
If I believed in god I'd say: God help me.
I swear I will change. I just don't wanna die like that. I haven't done what I wanted. I haven't lived yet. It's unfair.