Senseless. It's coming back again. No way...
Recreatting those thoughts again and again, desiring to protect our feelings. But it all ends up with taking the blame for the sadness. No useful lessons are taken out, we just stop for a while to repeat those mistakes once more later.

So, I am totally wrong. It's all the other way round. Guess, I went too crazy about ideal love. As time passes by, less people share these visions of happiness. Nobody's changing. We are just trying to hide from our own reality, creating those illusions of hope, that someday it's gonna be alright. That we can move on... But the time passed. And we are still here, dying.
It seems that you're right, angel. Have to rely only on yourself. There's no reason to trust or to express feelings...

Crap... Please, let me fall asleep... I can't stand this anymore..

It seems, I've started realizing... Realizing about this light and peaceful Silent Hill music. This is how a human feels when being not afraid of death. This is what happens, when you know, that you're going to die. Maybe now, maybe later... But it doesn't matter. Because you're ready. Living close to death, speaking to it, trusting...
Deep in the Dark Forest...

[Forest of Death]

You don't need to hide from anything. Don't have to waste energy on blocking sad thoughts... Your mind is FREE!

And that is when you are fully alive. For a single last moment.

Funny. Love is stronger than death..? Mistake.
[Love and death are the same thing ever...]

@music: Akira Yamaoka [SH2 OST] - Forest
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