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Careless. That's how people are with each other. It's so easily pathetic to use your pride as a shield for your carelessness. 

People don't care for each other. They do only if it suits them. So if talking about pure emotion it isn't there. And I'm sitting here glaring nails in my hand to stop feeling this shit and realising that I don't care for those people anymore. I don't even care if they are dead or alive. Makes me a really nice person, doesn't it?

But I do really understand now that I don't need people at all. I don't miss those who are no longer in my life. I don't need to share events of my day with anyone. I'm used to not having people around me. I'm used to their selfish uncaring personalities. So loner is a loner. That's who I am now and probably always have been. Primary and secondary socialization are not easily knocked out of you, aren't they?

And why really blame yourself if you can easily blame others?