Strange feeling. I feel like I am an empty hollow cover. Closed like I don't know a closed space. 100% empty. Without feelings, organs, anything.

Bonus: I also don't give a fuck about anything.

And now being in this condition I'm wondering again what is better? To feel or not to feel if feeling is the exact thing that leads you to the indifference? Like a closed meaningless system. Like a line with two ends.

Feeling smth strong <-----------> Indifference

I'll return to the starting point I know but then after some time I'll return to the ending point too. And now I'm wondering what the fuck?

I'm not sure that both ends are worth anything. And I'm not sure that I'll be fond of the person I'll become after a couple of such transitions.

Cheers to the triggers. Both future and past ones.