It's true that whatever happens with us changes us. Whatever happened with us made us who we are now. Probably if you hate somebody you'll try not to be like this person and i really hope it can be a success. So should i thank the person who i hate for having qualities that i despise if she kind of helped me become who i am? Even if she did it by being a selfish bitch or by non-existence in my life? I hope i'll never become like her.

Ok, let's assume that i'll never become one. That i'll become a selfless and generous person. It is good if i am able to use this selfless generosity. I don't know.. to save somebody.. to help somebody. In this way it does have sense, but if i am not? For what was it all? If circle doesn't close?

Damn, too much shit in my head.