oh, i cant blame you...it was all me...wanting more than i should have and being too scared to ask if you felt anything like i did...so now what? is that it? another chapter closed....i wish i had the ability to shut off the parts of me that long for everything all at once...it is hard to accept that you are just gone, and yet right there and i am so fucking scared to just say hi. i am crazy and thing you will get all freaked out thinking i am some obsessed lunatic. i am not i just think you are one of those people i want to always know one way of another. it makes me sad to think i found someone with so many great qualities and similarities in how we think about stuff...friends are hard to come bye you know, at least the kind that matter, you know the ones that truly care...to forget a friend is sad, not everyone has had a friend.
i dont want to be forgotten. i can't forget you. come back.....you are one of them....the blue and whites.......

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