and it is so to me. Friends call only when they need something, in other days they're silent, and i'm alone. My schoolmates won't even call, it's always me who calls them. When I need something nobody's there, i understand perfectly that some them don't have time, they're busy, they got problems. Funny, but when somebody have a problem, very often they tell me about it in first place. Of course i'm flattered that people trust me, share their problems, but mostly it's not the real problem they're talking about, they're just whining about something that not worth crying and i get tired listening to all this crap..maybe it's awful what i'm saying but it's what i think. Well to be honest I'm always trying to comfort or give some advice when people really need this, they're in trouble. But what about me? I have problems too, right now my biggest problem is that nobody's around... I admit sometimes I like to whine and pity myself too, but i try not to overpress my friend with all this stuff, or maybe... i just don't have friends close enough whom I could always tell everything I feel..hmm I'm confused...
I noticed that quite often, when ppl just meet me they can tell absolutely everything, and they don't even bother that we know each other only for 2 days, but they only talk...they don't listen...they don't even want to..
I'm tired to keep connection with friends who give me back nothing, i'm tired to be the one who always calls or writes first..I don't want to be alone, but sometimes i can feel more lonely when i'm with them. Keeping friendship alive is a hard work, i just don't want to work alone and for free all the time.