I've been feeling inexplicably sad lately, my moments of joy are brief and superficial, the sadness goes deeper, I don't know why. I feel lost, alone, without purpose. I love my friends, but I can't help but shut them out. Have you ever talked over a conversation in your head, but when you met the person you wanted to have it with, you didn't wanna say anything anymore? I've been doing that so often lately, wanted to open up, but when the time came I lost my resolve. And I've never felt so vulnerable, I used to be so thick-skinned and now when something negative happens I just crumble. Or maybe I was just lying to myself and actually always been that way.
My birthday is in 2 days, I'm gathering my friends but I don't feel as excited as I should be, my mother bought me tickets to Rome for september, and why am I not as ahppy as I thought I would be?
Well, one thing I can say honestly and with great certainty - music makes everything better.