i don't even beleive in its reality.. i mean this whole world.
we live in our illusions of consumption, 15 billions of iluusory worlds.. and NO ONE real between them..
what should i choose as an absolute value?
so many wonderful things r vulgarized or hackneid, and so many things created to control and expluatate masses of ppl r considered to be wonderful!..
or vice versa..
i dunno what to choose.. but 1 thing i know exactly. i don't want to became much talked-about "buridanov osel"..
how could i extract a small sheet of real beauty of this world from a great mass of trash?

ehh..
i want to go to sea too. or better to the ocean...
but fuk, it's too much trash here..

gonna mod.