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so u r readin that shit why it doesn't a matter now

may be now u will understand why does FLAM is so that she is. the same shit, the only difference was that the choice had been done by him, not her. but it is no meant. i can't say that this your message can rise my mood, cause it is only the continuation of destiny irony. u had done a great mistake, but... may be all that will end. and u will luv another "excellent tattoed brilliant man" and willl be ready "to do anything for him". it is life, u know, the luv ends, and the next is going on. if u want an advice just watch a film "Pokolenie DOOM", it shows what the hell is the place where we r leavin and that luv means nothing here. u'll find another one, i believe. i don't miss u (of course sometimes i do, but not too strong) and i don't suffer from being alone. very much people are enjoing such a state, and they r really right. there r much interestin people who had appeared in my life when u'd gone, and i like it) but anyway, thanx for the lesson, diexa, although u was only a stage (not too long) in my life, u was a very important stage. now i am really much more happy then before. and i am free now, and hav much time to develop my personality and think about my existance) i hope, i'll fly away to london in the next year and will never return to this fuckin country. may be that stage will change me too, but now i am sure in my wishes and i believe in myself.