I have triple life...

Day: IRL, the real world..
work. tattoo-studio. body modification, administrating, solving usual problems..
Evening: IPW, the perfect virtual world..
game. the clan. wars. journeys. events. society. jocking and falling down..
Night: In imaginated world...
The world which comes to me as soon as i close my eyes...it stuns and assimilates me.
it is our world where we are together, where we walk and do things we had promised to each other..
and every time i open eyes i feel a great sorrow aand pain of coming back to my usual loneliiness.
i cried now. but it wasn't a cry of pain, i cried because i can't keep inside my emotions.
i will never show them to others, u know (here i mean ppl who really know me, there is a very few such ppl in my life)
and this pain is so sweet.. becoz it lets me remember every second that i have a world inside my head, a world where we couldbe happy... It is a very beautiful and tragic fairy-tail..
but one thing i know exactly.
i couldn't keep it inside too long.
we stare at brocken clocks!!! and they show how much time will i stay until i start to act.
and this time reduces every time i close my eyes and open them again... tic.. tac.. tic.. tac..
lov my sun..