В колонках играет - Hawthorne Heights - Light Sleeper

Last two weeks it is awfully bad to me.I tried to hide,but it failled.First I thought, that there is a set of the reasons on it ,but now I understand, that the reason is only one - Alex. Last time I thought that this person  forever  has disappeared from my memory or even lays somewhere deeply, but it isn`t present! It was only illusion.It won`t be possible to me to throw him out  from memory so simply ,though probably I don`t want to do it.Maybe it`s so.I already began to depend on him: it`s awfully bad to me,when he doesn`t come to the net for a long time and then I start to go convulsively on all his diaries,sites and so on. It`s already similar to illness. I`m punched with envy (while white ) to his friends,cauz they can see him almost every day, can speak with him by phone, even simply tell him "hi"... But when he comes to net it`s something great! Each second of my life is pleased to me. Probably I won`t cut hand any more,cauz how I`ll communicate with Alex if I die. lol :]

 P.S. I begin to be happy! I remember Alex's words "Life is so presious to worry about stupid shit...(and so on)" and Mark's words "Do`t worry.Be happy " In fact I`m ready to obey u!

 
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