It's raining... In the outdoor and in my soul. It drench my pain again... Listen to Green Day... So light... Why can't we see each other more? Why can't I see his eyes and hear his laugh and jokes? Why am I so lonely again, again, again...

Always when I fell in love with somebody, I did never get EVEN some heat from the other heart and spent my own at all... Now when I have known him better, when we became closer, this connection is dying or may be not at all..

 I wanna scream and cry. I'd like to forget everything and everybody, forget myself and my feelings... I wanna drink, dance and believe that I still CAN believe people...

Damn it, it's painful... As usual...