I'm tired. I want to sleep. I don't wonna leave here. My heart is broken. I'll never see my friends and a person who I love...All is in the past now. Today my schooldays in Croydon was ended and my life changed again. Oh, my heart... Love is killing me cruelly and slowly... I have a foto with him... I will remember him forever... I cried so much last few days... But I'm alive now and sun is shining and I'm in London with my best friends...But my life is silly without him. Oh,no...It's difficult - to speak russian again. I dont want come back to Russia yet. I'm not ready...I miss my friends very very very much. But... They are so far from me... Mexico, Italy, Germany, Slovenia, France, Russia... I don't know how to live...