I am afraid all the time
I don't need reason(s)
the rest of the time I learn
learn from (my) mistakes.
I keep guard deep inside
under (my) eyes.
And thus my days pass
and the night in the meantime
almost two years
I am not here.

You cry all the time
even during joyous times
and who knew you are one that sees
under the tears.
The black sky
and the nights of fear
the bruises from your parents,
the darkness in the shower
you do not forget.
You are forbidden to...

So if already
then let snow fall here.
If already
then let the stars fall
may God reveal himself.
If already, then not just when we're dead
and this has no value
if already
then let us die like angels
may God reveal himself.
while we're still alive.

Between this and that wherever you won't go
and whatever you won't say
between this and that
everything will yet complicate
and take a turn.
Between this and that
at the end we will yet disappear
like wind over the water's surface
between this and that
we knew one has to pay
so we'll pay double
I don't give a hoot.
I'm not here
not here

So if already...