Today was interesting day..
Really amazing..
I was reminding all our weekend with Randy and noticed one thing..
He did that, i was trying to do for 5 years...
I ..had problems. with my private intimate space..couldn't allow anyone to enter this zone..i mean in my previous relation i needed to control this..
From the very beginning there..in airport..standing near the wall..i didnt feel anything except love, embarrasment and excitement..no fear..no panic as usually i had..
Really interesting..and mm..staying in lift in my house with him..again near wall..i didnt felt any fear..even opposite feeling..felt he is protecting me..
I don't know how he did it..I didn't notice any barrier he to pass, only now, analysing it i can see it, then it was just naturally, as it should be..
somehow he entered in my soul and brain and heart so deep, that i didnt notice it))
He is healing me...my complexes, my fears..he is great.God..i love him soo much..Tell it to him every minute..Feel myself so silly..but enjoying this)) think i am crazy..
Today i was in the city center with the business..everywhere on my eyes pregnant women...i want soo much to be pregnant too..i want to have his child..
this time...waiting whether i am pregnant or no..it drives me crazy..i feel very strange..behave as i would be pregnant))
Girls on my work...don't know how they will survive these 2 weeks, till i be sure..I am a bit.mmm..strange now)))this is lightly expression))
Will tell you when i will be sure, ok?