I am very emotionally drained after the weekend, Harry has been as horrible as he used to be in the old bad times. He kept pushing me to do things, and as I resisted, it got out of hand and spoiled the entire day.. And the argument kept on this morning too. For something so silly, that nobody would even believe it.. He wanted me to take the washing out of the washing machine and hang it outside.. He kept on and on, and whenever I said no, he would insult and threaten me.. I was busy working on my photos, I had very limited time - Yuri only had .5 hours of sleep, and I had so much to do!… I said: "do it yourself, or I'll do it later". But he would not do it himself, as "he has done the washing the previous week"… he demanded that I do it.. And later he accused me for not being able to do his own washing, because "my washing" was in there… I had to scream at the end, I said to him "get real, you are not a handicap, you are perfectly capable of taking out the washing from the machine." But he does not get it - he is too obsessed, and can't accept my rejection, so he has to keep pushing until he gets me to do what he wants me to do. He screamed at me, accused me of being rude and disrespectful, and threatened not to help me when I need him.. I said, "why don't you go and tell your solicitor that you never ever push me? And that all that happened today, I actually took it out from the book?" I told him he seriously needs help. Then he confessed that he's been taking some anti-depressants, but then he stopped (that really explains relative calmness that we had at home, but now it's back to total madness!"). His face, his eyes looks sick. If I did not know how weak he actually is inside, I would have been scared of him.

Saturday I also had a bit of an unpleasant experience with Steph.. I travelled all the way to Shadwell, and after coming out of the tube station I took a wrong turn, I had a heavy bag, and I had to carry Yuri in my arms when it started raining… She told me off for not being able to find her house, she could have turned it into a joke, but she actually was angry at me!… Yes she was very stressed, as she broke her keys that morning, etc.. But I do not think I deserved her being so aggressive with me after I travelled almost 3 hours with my child to see her…I guess I am sensitive to any type of violence these days, so her frustration with me did not go well. It's not the first time that we have a bit of a personality clash.. Not a clash really this time, as I was purely attacked by her. It was not too bad after Stef, Steve and their children arrived, we had some lunch, and then Steph decided to put on her favourite movie.. Old French comedy about a rabbi from the US visiting Paris. It was ok, but I did not think it was worth it, going all the way there just to watch this film, and not even being able to talk. That is not my idea of a good time… Am I being difficult, I do not know?
I just did not like it. I was really glad that I went to see Andrei after that, seeing him and the girls really made up for that unexpectedly unpleasant meeting. We took lots of great photos. It's so good to be with people who enjoy it as much as I do. I also took some pictures of Maya on Sunday, so in terms of my photo-work the weekend has been a success. I think I am getting better. I ordered some more memory and a spare battery, I am getting ready for the first real challenge, it just in 1 month time. I am half way through the Wedding photography book, learning some very useful tips.

Tomorrow I will be spending a day in London, meeting up with various clients. It is something I am very much looking forward to. I shall feel better soon.