There is so much that I want to write about!! But I have got no time for it!
Today I even had to cut down on my lunch time, as I got a client call, which lasted half an hour, and then I had another call right after it…
Work has been busy this week. Just as well! I realised that I am lucky that I actually have a job after that disastrous interview on Monday.
I felt quite inadequate, and it took me some time to recover from that experience. I knew it all the way, this position was too difficult for me, but they called me up and so I went… I was curious! Curiosity kills the cat, as they say. Anyways, at least I am enjoying my work again this week, and even thinking that may be I should give it another chance, at least for now.
Apart from this, lots and lots have been happening from Friday onwards.. On my way to Shelly's I realised that I lost my phone.. It actually fell inside the car, but I did not find it when I looked for it… So poor Shelly had to drive me back to the nursery car park to look for it, and of course it was not there. Then we went to her place, and had a nice dinner there. I was distressed, and I think it was not as fun I we were hoping to be.. Plus Yuri was holding me by his side, so we were not able to talk with Shelly who was at the other end of her specious kitchen.. Still it was very nice, and at the end we were being silly, running around and laughing!
I called Harry to say that I lost my phone, he thought that I made it up… He kept calling me obsessively, but of course I did not know about it.
When I got home (around 20:30), he was sitting on the sofa with an angry face. He said: I am angry and hungry, go cook for me! He came home at 19:00, and instead of fixing a quick dinner for himself, he decided he'd better be angry at me for not cooking for him!
I did not have energy to argue, it was easier to cook for him, as I knew he would not leave me alone. He was absolutely terrible and rude… why is he making himself so miserable? I will never understand.
At the end I went to bed.. He thought I was drunk, but I was not, I was just tired… But in his head he made a note that later would allow him to re-write history (another common trick for abusive man). When I got home from the ball, after a night with almost no sleep, he told me: "you come home drunk on Friday night, and then return with a hangover (another lie) - what the hell is going on?!"

Anyways, he was so unpleasantly pushy on Saturday morning (insisting that I clean the apartment), so I packed my bags and left.
I stopped at Reading on the way, and got my hair drier and hair colour (which I never got a change to use yet). We got to Blackwater ok, it took about 20 minutes from Reading, but we spent another 20 minutes waiting for Camay. We were lucky then and got a bus quickly! She has a lovely house… We had some dim sum for lunch and chatted happily.
Then I put Yuri to bed around 14:00 and started getting ready.. Timing was perfect. I arrived in old jeans, no make up and dirty hair. When I came out of the bathroom, with styled hair, make-up in my shiny evening dress, little Ben was quite impressed! "you look nice he said".. I can't explain how much this compliment from an 11 year old boy meant to me!
I got a cab to the train station.. I though I would be super excited.. But instead I could hardly hold my tears. Guilt for leaving Yuri, so I can go to this ball, was overwhelming me. I realised that often I picture things to happen, and I think I know how I would feel, but when it actually happens, I feel something totally different.
I arrived to Maidenhead station, and Ben drove in him father's Mercedes, he looked really smart.. I felt like we are in a play or a movie! We were early and had a drink in the bar before everyone arrived. Ben treated me like a proper gentleman, it was so nice! May be we looked like a couple, me and my shy modest colleague, who is much younger and has never had a girlfriend in his life…
The evening was excellent. I have called up Camay after the Champaign, and she told me how well all is going, and that Yuri is having a great time…Finally I relaxed and started enjoying every minute of that special event. Dinner was very nice, and we were laughing, joking and having fun! We shared raffle tickets with Ben, but we did not win anything..
Entertainment was great too, and then the dancing of course. I loved it… It was funny to see all the men dressed exact same way.. It all seemed surreal. Though I've done this 1 year ago, I still think it's amazing that I am in a position to attend this kind of events.. They are for posh and super rich…not for plain Russian girls.. But I've made my contribution for charity too, at the end of the day that what it was about.
Ben drove me back to Camay's place.. It must have been close to 3 when I went to bed. I shared bed with Yuri, and did not get much sleep that night, as he woke up at 7 and wanted to play.
Camay was so sweet and took such good care of us.. I felt like I was with my family, this warm comfortable feeling that you can be yourself and not worry abut anything!
I took a taxi back.. It all ended up being an expensive adventure, but I do not care.
Harry bothered me again all Sunday. He was upset that I did not call him.. I just did not want to, and could not explain it.
After some sleep in the afternoon we all went out for a walk.. It was windy, so we flew the kite.. And then went to the playground. Somehow evening was peaceful at the end.
On Monday Harry did not come on time for me to go swimming.. I did not complain, but was disappointed.
He had a look inside my bag and found the paper confirming my interview… He told me that he knows where I went…
This man has no shame!
At least last night I had the whole night of peace.. He had a late meeting, his company is finalising the purchase of a hotel… Heaven, it was the best night ever! Why can't this happen more often?