Right now I'm just confused. Matt and I broke up. Of course I'm sad, but I'm more confused than anything. We seemed so happy. We had all these plans of hanging out, taking pictures, going to concerts and the junior prom, seeing movies, me coming to watch him in marching band, meeting up at the auditorium on the first day of school... I want all that stuff back. =[

The last time I saw Matt he and I just laid down next to each other and he fell asleep while I stroked his hair and face. I went shopping with him earlier that day and met his grandparents. He seemed so happy, and I was happy. Then he calls me and breaks up with me. I'm just not sure what happened. He said I'm not mature enough and that I need more experience with boys and I agree, he is my first boyfriend therefore I don't have much experience. I just wish I knew what provoked this.... Did someone say something? Did I do something? Did he just have a sudden realization? Did he stop liking me? I don't know.

He would always tell me how happy he was with me, and how he loved that we could just sit on a bench at the mall and be so happy. And I agree. That's why I don't understand... He left for two days, and then something changed. Did he feel this way before he left? Or did someone say something? I really hope that's not the case because I ignored and disbelieved everything other people told me about him. I'm not sure.
But he just wants to be friends right now and I respect his wishes. He seems to feel that this is the right thing to do, and I respect that. Maybe it is. I just wish I understood... I wish he could explain it to me. I would have understood completely if he wanted to take things slower, hang out a little bit less, or anything like that. I just have so many unanswered questions. This doesn't make sence to me because ya I guess I am like Megan, but we were so..... bleh, I don't know. I remember he told me one time that he felt we would last a long time because he would never break up with me. I'm just so confused. Grr


Well.... I guess right now only time will tell.