Mood: indifferent
Music: KoRn - "Somebody Someone"
i wanna end up this fucking life... i'm so sick of it!!!!! i'm sick of this lies, i'm sick of those faces, voices, promises, talks.... i wanna END IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everything!!! i want peace, rest.... i want 2 be myself!!!!!!!!!! not 2 pretend, not 2 do anything, I WANT 2 BE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i can't...not in this life... maybe in next... i want 2 my next life already, if it would be easier 4 me 2 live there! i'm tired of holding all this shit inside of me...i'm gonna blow it up soon...i can't take it anymore... but i'm 2 weak 2 end my life....I'M FUCKING WEAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have no one , NO ONE , whom i can tell what i feel, what i need and what's wrong with this damn life.... i just don't! seems like ppl don't wanna listen... maybe it's so...who knows... but i don't care about them... not anymore...i'm sick of everything, everyone, of all this world.... i want 2 dissapear... 2 be in peace with myself...to rest from masks and theater of life... i don't think anybody in this world can help me... now i'm listening 2 KoRn and understand that i don't need somebody, someone anymore... i'm starring at ppl, happy, ppl that know what love, happiness is, who can find a person that will understand them... who can live happy despite all those problems they have... i'm not like this... i'm 2 weak 2 be like this... i'm tired of being like this....
and i'm tired of writing...
i wish all this shit will end soon...