stranno, chto hot' ya i vela etu chush' tol'ko kak vspleski svoih emocii , i v principe daje ne dumala, chto kto-to eto vse prochtet, eto chitali....nda....v svete etogo obraschus' ko vsem, kto eto prochitaet: YA USHLA OTSUDA !!! po-krainei mere na drugoi dnevnik, kotorii nikto ne budet chitat' 100pudovo...nu vot ono i vse....ocherednoi zaeb moego vospalennogo voobrajeniya...

it's kinda funny, u know.... i'm haunted by voices .....sometimes faces....i feel real panic every 2 hours or so...my heart hurts like mad...so does the rest of the body....my mind is on fire....all the colores r brighter than usual, sounds r so loud....my head's going 2 explode.....


ah, well, it's me

uidi.
uidi!
uidi!!!
mne bol'she ne nujno tvoe prisutstvie
uidi, skazala
chto?
lubish' menya muchat'?
slishkom pozdno, solnishko, ya zabila tebya
kogda?
v tot moment, kogda mne nadoelo obmanivat' sebya
kto vinovat?
ya, ti - jertva moei skuki, mne ochen' jal', haha
ne smei bol'she otkrivat' rot, tvar'
molchi
tak ti luchshe vsego
uidi molcha
nikogda ne zastalyai menya vspominat' o tebe
ni-kog-da



From MSN conversation 2day:
"u r fucking sick person, do u know that?!" (c) Zombie

sjat'
sil'nee
esche sil'nee
glaza zakativautsya naverh
do chernoti
sjat'
hriploe dihanie
"a---eee---u-----"
Blya, che ya delau?
razjat'
brosit'
prijat'sya spinoi k stene
glaza na 180
strashno
bous' sebya

hochu esche

Paren' s ideal'nim harakterom, huh....


Cute




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Something takes a part of me
Something lost and never seen
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me,
from me
Life's gotta always be messing with me
(You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free?
(So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain?
(You wanna see the light)
I try to every night all in vain,
in vain
Sometimes I cannot take this place
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste
Sometimes I cannot feel my face
You'll never see me fall from grace
Something takes a part of me
You and I were meant to be
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me
Feelin' like a freak on a leash
(You wanna see the light)
Feelin' like I have no release
(So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased?
(You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free,
is free
Sometimes I cannot take this place
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste
Sometimes I cannot feel my face
You'll never see me fall from grace
Something takes a part of me
You and I were meant to be
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me
::gibberish::
Go!
Some fight, some things they ::gibberish::
Fight, some things they fight
Some, some things they ::gibberish::
Fight, some things they fight
Fight, some things they ::gibberish::
No, some things they fight
Fight, some things they ::gibberish::
Fight, some things they fight
Something takes a part of me
You and I were meant to be
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me
Part of me
Part of me
Part of me
Part of me

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Ne terplu chujuu bol'...
Nenaviju chujuu bol'...
Ne reagiruu na chujuu bol'...

Kak olicetvorenie polneishego egoizma, lublu tol'ko svou bol'...

Ona - edinstvennii, kto menya nikogda ne predast...kto vsegda budet so mnoi...
В колонках играет: Muse - Hysteria

LI 3.9.25

Why is my memory still longing
Is it still longing for you
Why is my heart never beating?
Is it still beating for you

As time has passed
Nothing has changed
As tides have turned
I am still the same

Have I ever been in love with you?
Have you ever been in love with me?

I believe in you, you believe in me
And as times will pass, the gods agree
I`m in love with you, you`re in love with me
But you`re just too blind to see

Why am I still breathing?
Am I breathing because of you?
Why is my pain never ceasing?
This is, this is because of you...



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broken


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ya ponimau, chto perestala chuvstvovat'...voobsche...kak budto ya stou za tolstennim steklom i nabludau na prohodyaschei jizn'u....nikakih emocii....che so mnoi? nado zanovo nauchitsya chuvstvovat'...chtobi probudit' chuvstva nachnem, navernoe , s boli..samoe sil'noe iz vsego...posmotrim, chto iz etogo poluchitsya...


P.S. Sdelat' sebe, chto li, po prikolu takuu tattoo =)))


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Music: Coal Chamber - "Fiend"
Mood::rolleyes:

hm..bot interesno....ya hochu sebe tattoo na vnutrennei storone zapyast;ya ili na lojbinke mejdu sheei i vsem ostal'nim telom....menya otgovarovaut, govoryat, chto eto bol'no....mojet, eto i tak, tol'ko ochen' hochetsya proverit' svoi bolevoi porog...

Skate
Drugs
Xtreme
Speed
Drinks
Metal
Enduring fucking
Tattooes
Bass
Drums
Freedom
PCs
Passion
Indifference
Tenderness
BDSM
Silence
Darkness