mood: sleepy
music: silence

i'm lost...i'm totally lost... i don't know what to do, where to run, what 2 hide... i'm so tired of my present life... i wonder, when did that all start? whe i came to israel? when i came to that school? or maybe when i came to this world?... dunno... nobody knows...
hm...people around me...those of htem whom i care about, respect & love, they know that... i can't hide my feelings towards someone... my friends can always trust me and relay on me, i'll always help tham... but.. some of them (whom i met some time ago) just don't get it...well, it's all about the time... except 4 my friends, i don't give a fuck about ppl... they hate me, i hate them - that's it!
i know i'm a weirdo... u can't call that face a human.. (some time i'll post my photo and then u'll understnad what am i talking about)... i wish i had a courage to end this all up.. cause.. i believe in circle of souls..maybe my next life would be better than this... but, unfortunately 4 me, i have that animal fear of death.. i don't want 2 die... though i have nothing 2 live 4...

i'm soooo fucked up... anybody... just somebody...

nighty...