So.. I've decided to put some of my thoughts through my boring lessons..

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She's like.. in love with an 19-year-old girl...well, I couldn't expect smth esle from her... But she's suffering so much... She's in such a pain... I want to help her... though I can't...she seemed happy yesterday...Finally she smiled..in the en of the day. Well, she really loves her Joey..she needs her, and Joey... she just left..used her...She's like in an agony...I wish she would be happy someday..with someone...

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I'm thinking ...a lot... you went home and I'm left behind...I miss you.. I miss your everything... I need to see you, to hear you... You'll make me feel better... I'm lost. I've decided that even if it's bad when you are here, it's worse when you r not..I just...dunno...I just miss you!! Come back..i'm dying without your existence near me!!! ......still not loving you...

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You are inside of me.....

You fill my mind, you fill my soul, you fill my body...you fill my existence, you fill my death...you fill my everything...wanna be with you...BUT alas I'm not the one who's in your thoughts, your body, your life... Thus, I wish you only happiness...

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I just want to be special for somebody....like every living creature I want to be needed.....and at the same time I want to be alone....I want somebody to live for me, to die for me, to breath for me...and I want for me to answer in to that person in a same way...

FUCK!!! What do you 2 want from me?! U r just looking at me saying nothing..Don't you understand that you fucking hurting me?! I think u don't... You just keep on silently killing me..I will be killed by 2 persons at the same time....nice!!...

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It's just... I want somebody to care about me, to love me no matter how hard and painful it would be...At least I'll know that somebody would be there for me...that I can trust someone...That's my dream...it will never come true...