still very torn about what to do about them. have them, not have them. even though i still have about 2 years (at least) to definitely make up my mind, i'm having the hardest time making a decision. on one hand i definitely don't want them now but on the other hand i'm afraid that i'll regret this decision when it'll be too late. that is seriously the only thing that's bothering me. i can't really think of any other reasons to have them aside from our parents leaving us alone and perhaps regretting not having them later. i don't really like babies or have a desire to have any of my own. is that weird? not to americans but our friends and family seem to think so. i know that if we do have children, we'll be wonderful parents, but what if we regret having them instead and it slips and they find out. i think if it wasn't for the social pressure, we wouldn't even be in this position. it sucks that just because of our background and heritage we have to do what everyone else has been doing for generations. russians always put a lot of significance on family and children. a woman's sole purpose in the world was to procreate. adoption is very much looked down on. no person in their right mind gives up a normal baby. therefore, something has to be very wrong with either the parents or the baby. and even if it's the parents, it's bound to be passed on to the baby. it's all very different here but how do i prove that to people who don't listen to reason. some of our friends have moved on to #2. will the time ever come when we'll be the only ones without offsprings? how soon? this is very depressing.