World War II set the basic conditions for the Cold War. The USSR and the USA were two strong geopolitical powers. It had nothing to do with the truth, only ambition on both sides. Both countries were in constant competition. And who suffered in the end? The regular Joe or Ivan suffered. People were sent to the space and bah blah blah. I call bullshit on it. When you in competition that means that you are jealous and envious of another person or country. That means you do not have enough faith in yourself.

If you wait long enough the hardest decisions are made for you.

(the prompt from Lewes free write)

I lived like this most of my life. My mom used to make decisions for me. It was very convenient. Later, my mom died and I lost the decision-maker from my crew. My mom was my family and real crew-member. To learn how to make new decisions and to make them myself --it was hard. I am still doing it. 

I want to break my own face sometimes. But I love my face. So, I keep carrying it proudly. I am proud of my face. The face of the Earth. 

I am learning constantly how to make decisions. How? By making the decisions. It is not easy and some of my decisions are not smart. But I keep moving forward. I make decisions and I move forward.

I move forward and I stumble again and I get up. And I keep going. Where am I going who knows? But I am happy that I finally can speak for myself.

 

I decided to become an Egyptologist again. This is not sent in stone but it keeps me going. I keep moving forward and I keep learning and watching webinars and keep reading interesting books and I feel fulfilled. It stops me from being scared and stressed. I might just stay an archaeologist and Bibleologist like I am now according to my Master's degree but this is not bad too. There are many things about Egypt there. Plus, God keep me going because I learn God's history.  And this is good.