Hard on the outside, but soft on the inside. Is that what I am like? Who am I trying to fool here? What do I want? I do surely know that we won't ever be together the way I want us to be. You are leaving in two weeks, I can't believe I have so little time left. Finally when I meet the guy, so funny, charismatic, silly at times, charming, handsome, and respectful, I find out that he won't stay here much longer. The night we spend together with you and your friends was one of the funnest nights in my life. Maybe I was just so whipped by the night you gave me, that I started imagining the a whole bunch of stuff. We see only the things we want to see. Who knows if there will be another night with you like that? What if there won't? The thing that I know right at this moment is that I don't want to let you go. And if only there was a way to stop you from going anywhere without making myself look stupid, I would do that. I like how we are such good friends, I like to care about you. I like when you hug me and don't ask for more. I feel secure in your hands. I've been to the most expensive restaurants with guys, drove the most expensive cars, got expensive presents from men, and all it took was one night with you to understand - that's not me, that's not what I need. All I want to do is walk with you anywhere, do anything that doesn't even require any expenses, because time spent with you is the biggest treasure to me. I've had a story like that only once in my life, where we were good friends with a guy, and we left of as friends even after liking each other. I still resemble moments of fun times, when I didn't need anything, but just the person to be around. And you know what? That's the best. It's sad that once I meet a person like that in my life again, I know that I am about to lose him. All I want is to at least try to make the best out of the time we have left. But what if it is not the case with you? I don't know what's on your mind. And I don't want to. Please, don't go?
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