I have thought about everything over and over. You know my approach to relationships. I believe that once its done - it is DONE. You know I don't believe in friendship between men and women and when you asked me if you can take 12 hour flight to see your ex-girlfriend it truly shocked and hurt me. The fact that you even thought about it - hurts me and I think that it is unfair. If you still think about her and even of such things as going and seing her, makes it obvious that it is not just friendship as you call it, and you still have feelings for her, so no need to lie. If you do not realize why this girl needs you, I cannot help you or teach you life at the age of 37 years - it is a little bit to late. I think that our flight to Ukraine should be delayed and well thought about before tickets are bought. You can't even imagine how excited I was to take you to Ukraine, show you everything, introduce you to my family. Well, not anymore. My grandmother and grandfather are two most important people in the world, and I do not want to bring to Ukraine "just someone" to meet them. I have to be 100% sure in a person, and I do not think I can be 100% sure in you anymore. I think you need time. Trust me, I like you a lot, I am so upset because of everything that is happening right now. I wish you have never said things you have said, but it is done and there is no going back. I'll give you as much time as you need to think about everything, what you want and who you need. But after that one of us, either me or her - has to be told things she doesn't want to hear. I tie no weights to my ankles, I understand the importance of letting go. You can't start a new chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the old once. Maybe we rushed it, maybe you needed more time before jumping in to the new relationship. I was willing to give you everything, and I know I would, but I think it is unfair to me to stay as a "second choice" if I keep doing so much. It hurts me. You hurt me when I think of things you have said, and I do not want it. And there is so much more out there for me, I do not want to be stuck in pain, if that's all I get from this relationships.
Take your time, think about all the things I have said, and let me know what you have decided once you are ready. Goodbye.