I became tangled in lies and actually lost myself somewhere in these countless layers. I'm fed up being special, it really is more painful than exciting. I never was normal, from my very childhood. let's say I'm just willing to try something new. for me "new" is finally becoming a part of the crowd. to tell the truth, I envy regular ppl so fucking much recently. guess it's nice to be ok. and it's for sure satisfying. and it must be fun, too. I'll try really hard, though I'm not sure at all that I'm not gonna fail.