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4 December, 2008

La La La.

Hello again.

What's the weather like in your shitty-beauty-city? 

It must be such a fun for you  to acknowledge yourself  in the middle of the winter, lonely and, well... lonely. I suppose you  just  can't get through winter, in case of our last snow's disgusting taste, huh? Hope you suffer.

So. On the second thoughts I realized how stupid I was, pretending to look like a home-made treasure. All that I am now is your parted old-school copy and your daily dream, fuckin' idol you've always wanted to possess. Do you remember the first time we met? Oh, I was just  N.O.T.H.I.N.G. inside, and you were kind of completely wallowed in troubles sweet-kid. Entered the show-room with that special you'll-love-me sight of yours. I was impressed.

Well, everyone was.

The case is not even that stupid appearence, you see, each at least accept those "bad onese", 'cause, goddamnit, it's such a satisfaction, to feel like a holly angel in comparison with them.  So I was about to stick to you, as quickly, as possible. And I did it, by the way.

I can't clearly understand, why in the end I lost. Actually it was a game, none really could win in, but I was particulary sure, I'll get the first place. No, no and no again, just can't lose! It's your way  to be marely a loser, not mine. On the contrary, I've always been a golden boy. Never looses, always first. What the hell we're talking 'bout, I've even joined volunteers later! I was a GOOD. Really. They say that they become GOOD if won't do anything bad. It is a lie. As I already spoke, the worse you are, the more baby's dummies love you, wishin' to be bleached on your dark background. That's my point. Anyway, I've never had problems - everyone was happy in lickin' my ass even if just didn't ask them for a  favour. And what  was I supposed to do than without any problem to solve?

Yes. I had to make my own personal problem.

YOU are my problem from the beginin' and till the end.