I was wondering if id be able ever to  postpone my plans and dreams for someone. And i understand i  was ready to do this once. But one should never do this. I want to follow my dreams wherever they take me.

I have many things i have to work on. And now it feels as the time for changes.  I have to become different. Everybody is saying theres no previous me they liked and loved and respected.

 Now they see me blue and gloomy and down

I have lost the sence of happiness that is being brought by friends, love, habits, interests ..

Have to bring myself to smth good again.

Have to find a new reason for  tomorrow. aND  i have. i just didnt believe in this.

Now that i feel free from everything i will.