Actually...I think i feel too empty here, inside...I need friends, I need someone or something.. I can't do ahything...again. Well, yeah, i'm 18 already. i am supposed to behave and think in a proper way, i'm expected to do certain actions. Well..honestly, i fuck all their opinions, whatever they are. I'm actually afraid of this insensibility, indifference, that i feel now. i've got a lot to do now, tomorrow and so on, about my studies. i've got a lot, really a lot of tasks, that are important and that are need to be done on time...And now, i'm actually sitting here... And do nothing. But it's different. Because i can't even say that i'm wasting my time, because i simply don't feel it. i don't even feel it, god...!  What i feel, is that i'm incomplete. I mean, no, not even incomplete, but sprawling. I mean, that i just don't feel myself a person. I feel myself like pieces, separate pieces, that are simply falling apart. You know, as if I do not exist anymore, as if i'm decaying, and my senseless persenality is destroying. Vegetate? yep...But even plants are full or something, and me not. Not something that's alive. Sorry.