The holidays have begun! The last friday it was a little bit cold, but who cares. All the thoughts were abot spring. It's smells spring. and you feel it. Anywhere. You can find this spring in the smiles of people, laught of children, colour of spring flowers, new rainy days. And so on. But no one seems just to try to look at this. Sadly :/

What about me? This weekend was amazing! Yeah. Me and my boyfriend ate pizza last night. We just wanted to go for a walk, but it was a freezing cold wind and snow. We went to La Perla just to hide ourselves from this nightmare weather. I looked terrible out. With a hot red skin and black cirkles under my eyes. Steffen looked like a snowman. But the day was perfect! Yes, it was.

Everything was perfect, just NOT the morning.

Yesterday I understood that I can bring so much pain to my mother. Enemies? Not. But I said much more I shouldn't say. Anyways. I lost myself. I feel empty. Empty inside. I never thought I can scream at her, say these words she never will forget. Not me.

I should wish I would be her dream's daughter. But I'm not. All I can do is just pain.

Rain..rain outside...and inside.

Sorry... I will be better. I promise

Jane Lane