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Sometimes we rush it sometimes, we don’t. I don’t think it is possible to love someone so much that they are part of your infinitive entity. The verity of love is purity and devotion. It is young love, when we cheat to prove to ourselves what did is wrong? Or is it simply an act of non- self respect? However, the turning point comes when we see that there is nothing left to hold this is when we stop fighting. Is this fair? It is fair that we make mistakes because we are unguided in our world? We are simply too selfish so, we love on a physical level.
Humans are animals, we say we are selfish and it is bad but it is part of out inner entity which dominates our chances of survival. We only care about ourselves and this is where love is a form of contradiction. It is something which is controlled by hormones in our body.
What is love, is it simply a contradiction of our try beings? Is it something which allows us to overcome our own ego and something for some one else? So, what do you do when you want to love protect and care for someone but they wont let you. They are by themselves, all these lies and all that time wasted. What do you do? When do you become your own person? When do you start loving yourself when you realize it is all a waste of time?
It is easy to think that you love someone when you could just want to love someone but you don’t know them enough. They say love is unconditional, I say love is based on emotions and like all emotions it is provoked. It is provoked in my eyes by admiration and responsive behavior. If your focus of affection doesn’t treat you like the way you do eg. Care about you as much and etc. It is difficult to love, it is almost impossible.
Love is an action, words don’t show nor prove the deepness of the penetration of emotions. It has to be carried out, it has to cause an effect so that your loved one feels it, if they won’t let you then you cannot love them. They will have to let you in so, you can share your problems together. Both have to remain in a committed relationship where both partiers can penetrate their souls and nourish emotionally each other and physically satisfy each other.
Without that it is not love but merely an excuse to pretend that this is your pursuit of happiness. What can be worst then to reduce you self to being with someone that doesn’t love you back as much as you deserve? When there is an entrance there is an exit in any situation so, I’m out for my own good. For my own future good, of course, I could really sit and pretend that I’m in love but I don’t want to. I am tired emotionally. I’m tired of the round trip of hurting my own ego over and over again in a continuous circle of life. This is done. There was nothing to start with or nothing to do. Life is unexpected and it may prove me other ways but right now….