Do you know what I have just realised? It will never end will it? It’s fucking love! It doesn’t just hide away when you squash it beneath your heart within your feelings! It comes out again, revolves itself but you just learn to live with it , with the pains, your mistakes, your past, your regrets ..
Some people call it beautiful OR RATHER BLESSED! How can it be? For God’s sake it will never happen, to much bridges have been burned by me, too much waters have washed away, too many memories banished, too many letters written and torn away in little pieces!
I used to think that I am game, I was in control I had guys like then would lead them on and fuck their self-respect up just like someone did along time ago. Now, its not the same any more and the stupid thing is I hurt myself..
Stupid, huh? You cannot turn the time back but you can learn but I guess I will just have to suffer the consequences. It could have all different Kris…every little bit of it!