I just hope nobody reads this thoughts of a crazy bastard I'm so deep in shit, i can't see and breath, music is my only releif, i met a girl today, been known her for a long time, she's hot, smart and has a nice name, and what?!?!? Fuckin' nothing Sex is still just a sport They say all the time they're broken hearted and someone brokes their hearts, i say - fuck it, it's rubbish, it's just nothing compared to something really big, really huge thing, u just don't talk in this case, you fucken shout and go crazy all over the place, especially when it's a constant pain acking inside your body, when u know something you don't want to know or see and hear some things that kill you slowly and softly, when you think of a person all the time, or, literally all the fucken time and belive me, your're lucky if it lasts for 3 months, but when it's 3 years or more?!? When u meet these people they just change your life, even if u don't know that or don't notice it, they stay inside you forever, sometimes you want to get rid of them, but just can't, it's out of your power, you still adore them deep inside at the moments when u, smart ass, think hate them. I thought i made quite many people suffer and i'm really sorry, 'cause i fucken know how it feels when u're empty and sex's just a sport. What if there just isn't anybody else to make you live? Yeah, like nobody's been confronted with that problem:

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And makin love was just for fun
Those days are gone

Livin alone
I think of all the friends Ive known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobodys home

All by myself
Dont wanna be
All by myself anymore
All by myself
Dont wanna live
All by myself anymore

Hard to be sure
Some times I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself
Dont wanna be
All by myself anymore
All by myself
Dont wanna live
All by myself anymore

All by myself - Eric Carmen