very often l have difficulties expressing myself..its like "where do l start. wots the beginning and wots the order of giving the fact that happened and the emotions felt,,,,,,,,,,," well now lm gonna set off this lil story with the slight pain l have on my right leg(tattoo) and my middle toe(hurts like a bitch, prolly broke my nail last nite)...and a fOkin hangover(yeah, that martini bianco),,,and it hurts a bit somewhere in my heart coz the person l wanted to be there with me did not take it for serious and just did not show up...way to go, Fahri, but wots the point of seeing each other, acting like u care when u dont? and no, l dont hate no one but l simply asked myself"lm here, he is not, then why does he need to be in my life?" and the answer is "there is no need of his fOkin presence in my life" ...does that make it any easier? dont think so,.,,l feel a bit empty, hurt, sad(this sweet taste of melancholy) yet so damn happy coz l did free my soul by starting the whole thing,,,starting a new me, whoz more honest and sincere and whoz not scared of the new and is always ready for smth crazy with a few friends and who loves deep,,,thats the most important thing...love IS beutiful but people misuse the word so often that it has lost most of its meaning,,,and l am ready to live my dreams, to build my personality and do wot l like and find my special person..the 1st steps made,,lets see wot the future brings ....and he WILL be there for me and he WILL hold MY HAND when l need it...