skoro Eid-volshebnoe vremya dlya Musulman. Eid Mubarak brothers and sisters!!!! Hope u spend it with ur beloved families (:

chas nochi...rydom milo pohrapyvaet Mohd (sporim cherez neskolko mesyatsev ego imya nichego mne ne skazhet?)
ya perebirayu staruyu pochtu...razmyshlyayu chegoto tiho stukaya po klave--ne hochu rabudit eto izbalovannoe i ustavshee sozdanie
i vsetaki takoe miloe

tochno...zakinu ego foty na pamyat vekov===glysdish kogdanibud poraduet glaz heheh
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tak davno ne brala ego v ruki,,tochnee ne dolbala po klavisham i ne tupila v monitor
vrode reshaetsya po rabote
mozhet dazhe Artea ozhivet nakonets,,ochen hochetsya(:

v almate uzhe nedelyu i vse vremya idet dozhd',,,,grustno,,,,

hochu obratno v emiraty,,,k vode,,,i k druz'yam

govorila sednya s Ibrahimom on nazyvaet menya \"moi ChIBARASHKA\"
Adel nazyvaet menya \"hun-hun\",,ya skchayu po nemu tozhe,,,da i ego bolshoi chernoi tochile ktr pugaet menya svoei tyazheloi dver'yu

perezhivayu za Muhsena-ne mogla do nego dozvonitsya,,kak on shas tam v Afghanistane...?
blagoslovit ego Allah,,,

mama v Kitae,,pust u nee tozh evse budet horosho i spokoino

lyublyu vseh...
masalama

u nego umer luchshii drug a ya dazhe ne znayu chto skazat...
skoro budu tam no ne ryadom snim
skuchayu po muhsenu,,,shozhu suma
govorila s farisom i on rasskazal pro fevral 2008
ye byla ego zapretnoi lyubov'yu.......
i ne znala etogo togda ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,blin k chetu vse

grustno..kak vsetaki odno sobytie mozhet mnogo izmenit,,napisal Ali, chto poka pridetsya otlozhit moi plany,,ya vse ponimayu i vse ravno grustno...

razobralas s bankom, nakonetsto
vchera govorila s hunterom na temu Saint Valentines...im such a stupid little child,,,,

vremya letit, vot uzhe 2009 god, uraganom proneslis mimo litsa, rekoi portyanulis tusovki i chto zhe ostalos?
nichego..ya v poiskah sebya besprestanno dvigayus po temnym labirintam, obretaya i teryaya vragov i soyuznikov..i opyat pustota,,ryadom chistaya tetrad i chernaya ruchka,,,nado chtoto pisa't.

ya chuvstvuyu chto esli ne zastavlyu sebya chtoto sdelat SEICHAS, tak chtoby potom bylo legche, to menya zasoset bytom i etoi brennoi duratskoi suetoi...

eshe tak trydno otoiti ot emotsii i sosredotochitsya na dele,,istoriya s Ali do sih por vynosit mne mozg,,,plavit poslednie izviliny prevrashaya ih v kakuyuto neponyatnuyu blevotnuyu massu-mozg ne mozhet ponyat' i PRINYAT togo chto proishodit,,,

eshe odin lyubopytnyi paradox--bolshinstvo lyudei ktr tyanutsya ko mne, mne absolyutno neinteresny,,,i te kogo VYBIRAYU YA, obladayut nastolko slozhnymi and sophisticated, complex harakterami chto hot veshaisya,,tak pomnozhit eshe eto vse na moi sobstvennyi infantilnyi i nepredskazuemyi harakter i vspylchivyi temperament i poluchaetsya smes, po svoistvam ostroty pohozhaya na TOBASCO hehe

vot tak i poluchils' u nas,,,hotya kakoe tam "MY"...on-culture icon, magnat vladeyushii neskolkimi biznesami, uvazhaemoe i vliyatelnoe litso emiratoff, krepko derzhashisya za traditsii i ya,,no ya eto ponyatno kto, tak chto kartina dostatochno veselaya.,,,

chtoto neslozhilos v noyabre i obshenie nashe prinyalo kakuyuto strannuyu storonu,,,ego zanyatost''i moya kucha svobodnogo vremeni hehe...i ego peremenchivost
plus eti temy s rabotoi,,dalenie izvne ... ego...

on okazal na menya takoe vliyanie-ya obnovila garderob zakrytoi odezhdoi, perestala pit (poka my silno ne porugalis) i dazh ena kakoeto vremya ne razvlekalas igrushkami,,,a potom BAH i vse,,,i kazhdyi den bez nego muka,,,a potom zvonok,,,photoreportazh,,,on uezgaet v koreyu ya uletayu domoi i my ne peresekaemsya,,rugaemsya po telefonu,,,slezy sopli,,,moi pisma ego otvety,,,my snova razgovarivaem,,,i vot snova kakieto idei plany,,,govorit chto poprobuet pomch...kto znaet
ya zadayu sebe vopros delayu ya eto vse dlya sebya ili izza/dlya nego i otvet navernoe pryavhetsya gdeto mezhdu,,,
vremya pokazhet Inshallah

eshe v poslednii den v Dubai ya znakomus s zamechatelnym chelovekom v rezhime online, ktr dolgoe vremya pomogaet mne priiti v sebya, podderzhivaet i vse takoe,,iteper golovoglyuk v tom zhto in uezgaet is Dubai v berlin 20go chisla i nam obyazatelno nado uviditsya do etogo vremeni,,,

sednya snilsya strannyi son,,drugoi mir, yarkii skazochnyi
tamlyudi puteshestvovali v osnovnom spomoch'syu snov..moim gidom byl david(stranno kak tam okazalsya etot zhurnalist)..ya pytalas fotografirovat gorod, no pochemuto vsede s potolka periodichesli nachinala hlestat voda...eshe ys prosila u d., est li u nih potselui, nu da konechno hehe
bopshem takie dela,,,

snilsya strannyi son...ya menyayu put', uhozhu s avtobusa i teryayus gdeto,,tantsuyu kakoito neznamkomyi tanets s belym muzhchinoi..plyvu na kakoito yahte..nyrayu,,ryadom liza,,,pytayus ne zamochit kameru...potom izhu T. i on govorit chto skoro pridet ona i vse takoe,,stranno

vypal sneg,,,holodno no prikolno,,,,

Ali svodit menya s uma,,,,,rabotat s chelovekom ktr vyzyvaet u menya samye raznye chuvstva ot nezhno-dtuzheskih do sumasshedshe-goryachih,,,ili uiti v storonu otkazavshis ot vozmozhnosti rasti ryadom s kemto takim silnym i interesnym? nashi razgovory eto postoyannye igry s ognem,,i vse zhe on edinstvennyi kto za dolgoe vremya vdohnovlyaet menya na umnye veshi,,,a eto mnogogo stoit,,,da hochu bystree obratno v emiraty,,,hochu k moryu,,k druz'yam..hochu rabotat nakonets...

poslednie dni sumsshedshie...tusovka v pustune s malchimai is staryh dubaiskih semei i synom azhmanskogo zheiha...klub vchera i kucha lyudei,,,etot spanets ktr prosto wow! i zavtra priezgaet jayjay..sednya ne hochu v klub no nado navernoe...

zavtra amirka priedet s utra kupatsya,,,vot eto klevo budet...
chto eshe,,,eshe sednya utrom dolgo dolgo govorila a malchikom odnim, nemnogo poteryannym,,,takoi zhe kak ya neskolko let nazad....vot,,,
zhal' ego...

Ramadan konchilsya i nachalsya prazdnik!!nakonets mozhno kushat gde i kogda hochesh a ne pryachas v tualete ili na parkofke hehe
na sednya bolshie plany, glavnoe chtob etot milyi malcheg ne sprygnul s temy poehat na plyazh..emu 26, on zhivet v emiratah u morya i nikogda ne plaval s devushkami,,,eto tak milo...oni sovsem ne taki kak my,,u nas polnoe beskultur'e, polneishei razvrat...zdes traditsii,,,budu ochen nezhno s nim obrashatsya chtoby chel ne tronulsya ot moih sumasshestvii....
i on takoi dobryi i nezhnyi i pri etom muzhestvennyi,,ehhh...i kak on govorit...blin,,wow u menya azh golova kruzhitsya ot nego(:

nakonetsto ya zapoluchila malchega v forme!!! wohoo, devochki budut mnoi gorditsya lolz....

vchera byla na kastinge na kakuyuto reklamu, popala tuda sluchaino i ne pozhalela---zatusila s prodyuserom, kurili shishu, tusili v budda bare i kupalis v more v 2 chasa nochi,,,volny takie bolshie i solenYE!!!!!!!!

slushayu lil wayne,,,da vchera nakonets jayjay napisal,,,skuchayu po nemu,,,nadeyus skoro nakonets peresechemsya,,,vremya,,,na vse nuzhno vremya...

vopshem krugom prazdnik, poidu pomeditiruyu na volny...ya nakonetsto zhivu---tusivki kluby bary restorany i more,,,i eto glaza i kondorry,,,damn!!!!!

poprosila sobrat list'ya i poslat mne ih v dubai..zachem? nado! zanyat-nu i prekrasno, nikto davno uzhe ne udivlyaetsya..potom v vannoi nachali musolit eti temy s maksom i on skazal chto list'ya nuzhny zatem zhe zachem i gnezda v skvere(privet slava 19letnyaya) -chtoby otdelyat' sheluhu ot stoyashego,,,
kakoi u menya umnyi drug, hot' i voobrazhaemyi (:

v poslednie dnia nemnogo zamotalas-vstreshi, vstrechi, i eshe ochen mnogo vstrech
vchera pol dnya torchala v politseiskom uchastke, vse mozgi protrepali mne tem chto vse govoryat chtoto raznoe
posylayut tuda syuda...uzhe skazali net, nelzya uvidet Sergeya vo 2oi nash priezd a chto ya ego mame potom skazhu? obyasnila Ali chto otvet net ne kanaet i nashli vse taki chelovek ktr pomog nam s drugogo kontsa zdaniya uvidet ego,,,a eshe tam rabotal Abdullah, tot krasavets ktr ya uvidela v 1oe svoe poseshenie i byl tak dobr ko mne,,,tut on obradovalsya i dazhe razreshil zaiti vnutr i pogovorit s nim min 20 (:
takie vot delishki,,,poobshalis, mnogo vsego tam levogo proishodit konechno, strashnye shtuki narod tvorit,,,vsyako izoshryaetsya chtob kinut kogonit'....

vse u nego budet horosho, glavnoe chtob on ne slomalsya, a my pomogali chem mozhem (:

govorili s Abdulloi navernoe shas po telefonu...on udivlen moimi poznaniyamu o ih kulture,,,eshe by (: dolgie dni(nochi) praktiki.............
ochen pochemuto hochu sednya uvidet malysha Antona-Savu...inshallah (:

skuchayu po jay Jay i nemogu ponyat chto zhe izmanilos...

poslednie dni kakieto ochen i ochen strannye,,,,to vse super, to polnaya popa,,nu nikakoi stabilnosti,,vchera vopshe tosklivo bylo ochen', uzhinala odna v food courte, gulyala po uptownu,,potom priehal David s druziyami i my poehali v bar guzhbanit',,,porugalas eshe s Jay jay i vopshe kakto parshivo stalo, potom mirilis ves vecher i segodnya vrode vse normalno.,,,v bare poznakimoilas s neskolkimi chelami, u odnogo iz nih prosto potryasnye volosy...dlinnye i pushistye,,,zhal chto on livanets,,ah da, menya neskolko raz nazvali rasistkoi, ochen zabavno,,,eshe vsyakie chely peli mne pesenku "happy bday "-vopshe zhest,,,blin a skolko my vypili vopshe neponyatno...vino tequila martini vodka,,,,fufufuf
sednya u menya post,,,,mozhet stat musulmankoi i vpravdu? nakonets zabrala dengi poslannye M., a to on uzhe Ahmada rugal,,,,on zaderzhivaetsya,,,bystree by priehal...

da, i Jay...vsetaki ya ne nezavisimaya devichka,,mne nuzhny moi malchiki,,,bez nih kakto vse ne tak...nu eshe oni zabotlivye takie,,,lyublyu vostok ya vse taki...

a Jay jay glupysh esli dumaet chto ya back ofo tolko izza togo chto on amerikanets...

priedet i poidem plavat s delfinami, da
i nochnoi plyazh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ochen zhdu, uzhe 2 nedeli ya tut
Ramadan kushat nelzya, shas toka prohodil chel mimo(a ya sizhu v kniizhnom, v borderse) i takoi-blin mne prishlos zhrat v tualete, eto zhe uzhasno!!! da, a komy shas legko,,,ya vot pozavchera 1yi raz v 11 poela haha,,pereshla na rezhim zaryadki ot solntsa lolz

hotela kupit flash no nuzhnoi net i dorogo vopshe
esli sednya vse utryasetsya s rabotoi to tochno vozmu (:

well today woz kinda a long shitty day, had to stay outside for sometime and find a place to sleep over...well thanx to some people i aint homeless hehe...and fahry and muhsen were ready to help to move my staff,,,jayson wanted me to come to kuwait hehe
sweet boy he is,,,well gotta sleep now
well great to have the universe support hehe
and always smile!

obshenie s nim svodit suma,,,kogda on skazal chto stih, nad ktr on rabotal poslednie dni(a takzhe pervoe ego proizvedenie)yavlyaetsya chast;yu moego bday podarka, my head like got dizzy, i felt freakin high,,,he amazes me..he wants me to go to thailand with him and that cud be like so great,,,,,,well we'll see,,,hope to meet him in dubai sooon


today i went to the beach with Tamby, the it guy who fixed my laptop (:
he is a very nice and sweet guy(: next time we'll go to old dubai probably (:

then i went out with M.....i got his ghitra and a'gal (:

his like so close to me, yet he is not all for me,,,and im keepin it friendly (:
altho his hands are like the strongest and the most emotional expressive ever.........this is for lifetime prolly, just not more thana life hehe

well,,,,,,,

mne prisnilos chto ya gulyala s Geroi po sh. zaed rd i ona smogla perebezhat ee, a potom reshila vernutsya i na puti nazad ee sbila mashina pryamo u menya na glazah....eto bylo uzhasno..ya plakala a potom poehala k Fime,,,Fimka,,,gdeto v drugom mire drugaya Slava ne uehala v dubai a ostalas' v almate i pytalas' borotsya za malysha,,,gdeto tam,,,tolko ya vot zdes' i borotsy sobirayus for the totally different cause,,saw amir today..went for a ride round the city, takin pix,,hun out in deira and bur dubai, watchin simple people, sellers and fishermen....doin their hrad jobs yet still bein so happy,,makin shawrma or carrying goods for someone,,,


woz testing myself of being indigo child and all the tests came positive....well as long as it dont become like a lable or anything,,,

well i miss my fam but aint ready to talk to them...and i miss M.

smogu li ya zabyat' ego, vdali, ryadom s kemto drugim...verila chto smogu, vernulas i uvidev ego, ponyala-zachem? esli imenno tak vse i dolzhno byt'...tol'ko eshe luchshe...nasha vostochnaya skazka,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i love dubai and im happy to have someone to love,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,no matter who is around,m he is always the 1st one in my mind,,,

eshe snilsya ochen s(t)rannyi son pro tainoe obshestvo i sbezhavshego palacha, derzkogo irantsa na baike, za ktr(so mnoi na zadnem sidenii) gonyalis nehoroshie dyaden'ki i periodicheski pytalis nas pobit'...vot (:
interesno etot son k sinyakam, matatsyklam ili irantsam? Lena mnogoznochitelno skazala chto eto k action!!! hehe

ya uzh epochti nedelyu v Dubai,,,vse vrode kak ustraivaetsya...neskolko dnei podryad byl depresnyak, smenivshii dikuyu radost, no teper vrode by poluchshe,,,vse izza duratskoi nevtemnoi polomki komputera, v ktr uperlis vstrechi po rabote,,vchera s "lyubimym" porugalis hehe', sednya ya nabralas sil i my reshili poprobovat konstruktivno obshatsya, vyslushivat drug druga i ne krichat'..on menya voobshe pugaet kogda povyshaet golos, plus s ego "terroristskoi" vneshnost'yu eto vyglyadit ochen dazhe vpechatyayushe...nado ego togda srazu obnimat', on teryaetsya i nachinaet ulybatsya, togda mozhno v napadenie perehodit' hehe,,,

vchera v malle poznakomilas s ocharovatelnym Rashidom, sednya katalis po gorodu, a potom on muchil menya vidom baran'ih mozgoff v livanskom restorane, s menya chut ne vyvalilsya s'edennyi kokosovo molochnyi taiskii sup s imbirem i krevetkami i iranskii kebab,,,ehh..potom on chut ne vpisal nas v zabor vozle doma, tak chto ya prizemlilas pryama na nego i ushibla ruku,,,voobshem priyatno osoznovat shto est eshe ktoto kto ne druzhit s golovoi eshe bolshe chem ya,,,

eshe vchera vecherom ezdili s Hamzoi na poberezh'e,,poplavali ochen milo, pravda strashno---v mutnoi vode vsyakaya hern' plavaet vrode arbuzoff, pomodoroff, paketoof, barraku, ryb-kraboff, jellyfishei i indopakov hehe

vot eshe pomiryus s roditelyami i sovsem vs ehorosho budet..no nemnogo popozghe,,,,

naiti v almate to chto ishesh, ne legche, chem naiti vcherashnii den'...natknuvshis na rolik o samom elitnom baik klube v dubai(vse na ochen krutyh chopperah), ya zatoskovala eshe bol'she...ya tak soskuchilas' po vostoku,,,po etomu obrazu zhizni,,,po moryu i po pustyne,,,po lyudyam,,,po rodnomu klubu lodge...i eto vse ne govorya pro druzei...v almate takih voopshe pochti net............eshe ya skuchayu po Nemu, edinstvennomu cheloveku, kotorogo ya kogdalibo uvazhala i kototrogo do sih por lyublyu,,,prosto uzhe po-drugomu,,,ya gotova k rabote, k novym vstrecham i dostizheniyam...mne nuzhno uehat',,,tochnee mne nuzhno popast' v dubai,,,domoi,,,tam gde menya zhdut i gde ya dolzhna byt'...........

...2 chasa nochi,,ne spitsya,,napisal Antonio i mama Jacque...Mohd pohvalil moi raboty...Moe, Ali pishut chto skuchayut'..hochu v uae...zavtra Fimka priehat' dolzhen...ura ura...byla na atakente i videla potryasayushuyu serost',,gradientnye gory vylivalis v nebo polosami dozhdya tsveta mokrogo asfal'ta...eshe lyublyu centre..i iblepihovoe varen'e,,gulyala s Lenoi i Timoi i dr. narodom...mama uehala,,hochu pal'my i more i pesok i svezhii sok i moreprodukty i porsche i eshe araba s verblyuzhimi glazkami i dlinnoresnitcgatymi glazkami,,mozhet dazhe na irantsa podpishus' hehe...net...na samom dele hochu odnogo belogo obtatuirovannogo mal'chega,,,interesno, on privezet mne griboff??(gruzdev k kartoshke)..hachu eshe v tau spa,,lezhat' v jacuzzi ...smotrela na nebo dumala o Boge, na menya upalo pero..vot tak vot....