i felt so high yesterday - and today i'm just void of all feelings. now i know that my strength is my weakness - i ended up becoming so used to stand all this mess aka my life, that i just can't let myself quit it, get rid of all this senseless everyday struggle... or even try to rearrange it somehow. and what is worse - i'm stuck in the most fatal dependance... on my own independance that is. by now i already would be glad to "press reset", to start it all over again... but sometimes r e a l shit happens and destiny plays cruel tricks on those who once dared to argue with it.
hope you all didn't understand what was it all about in this another stupid post of mine... and never will.