''To you I'm like a cat that has nine lives,
Killing each one of them after she dies
She's always looking after you, through heartbreak & pain
Walking alone at night, in the streets of pouring rain
She's trying so hard to be his best friend
While he spends time hoping her nine lives would soon end.
She'd give away her every life, for him to be happy without her green eyes
There's nothing special about him, but every one of her tries
Shows how selfish he can be in her own eyes
She asks for nothing in return, as he rejects her once again & hopes her love for him would burn
Why does she want to give him so much, without getting nothing in return?
Maybe it's because she loves him in such a way, to you not known.''

& everytime we say ''it hurts like never before'',
It's cuz we forget the past, what it was like when we closed all doors.

We always say how we ''loved this one truly''
Until the next one comes along & all the love is gone.

It's not like we're able to love, we're just jealous.

We say we need someone by our side when life gives us shit, but in a dark room we see only our reflection, when all the lights are lit.

We say we love forever, because forever is a pretty word,
But you can't love one forever, with so many others in this world.

We regret, recalling that it was exactly what we wanted.

We compare people, without really knowing,
After breaking hearts, we start looking for motives.

We find ourselves lost & feeling weak
Coming back from where we started after every cheap trick.

After we're left we think we can't live
Then we look in the mirror knowing that if we're strong, we'll forgive.

We want others to be happy, but not at our expense
If somebody crosses our path we pay back with revenge.

We say we wish they'd find true love,
But when they do, we close the door, saying ''that's enough.''
A few good friends, they weren't us.

A few ''good'' lies, just caused distrust
Sometimes I wish we wouldn't consider friendship- a must.

''In my sleep I heard the raindrops fall upon my rooftop
Thinking of you & her, those images in my head they won't stop
I'm sure the ''love'' you gave to her will loose its charm
But why did you choose this way to cause me so much harm?
For me you are now dead,
Whatever fate has written for me, to this it always lead.
I won't pick up, if you ever call
The only enemy is shadows of you & her, & the mirror on my wall
I wish I could block out the sunshine, that's been in my window all day,
To fall asleep forever, knowing you won't stand in my way
Even if you wanted to, what would you possibly say?
That you have no more feelings for me,
While silently in bed I lay...''

''But don't you worry, don't you cry, just remember it was you that spent your whole life hoping that this love would die.''

В колонках играет - ''Veter''- DDT.
Настроение сейчас - :-(

Today was allright, I went pj shopping w. Yana, then we met up with Anna to give her back the money. Misha was like telling me where I should go & who to meet ^ w. lol it was funny... Then me & Yana went out for sushi, I'm sure you people aren't even surprised anymore when you read this haha.

FINALLY, Asya's back, we were on the phone & I told her everything cuz I've been feeling shitty the whole day. She was like well, you got two choices call him & you'll feel better or don't. & w.o. even realizing it I said no, ''I would rather him feel better than me feel good & him bad.'' She was like ''is this Lena I'm talking to?'' LOL sucha bitch. But she was like, that sounds so unselfish coming from you, I wish you'd say ''I wish I was sick instead of Asya.'' I'm like ''NOW, that you don't count on.'' haha

so maybe... THAT'S love.

This was cool. LOL. We get there, her roommate is sleeping & I'm listening to Anna thinking damn why can't I be sleeping. Eventually both of us just fall asleep & 2 hours later Anna's waking me up...because her dear bf called & she's off to see him just leaving me alone in her house. Not that I cared @ that time, I just went back to sleep. lol I wake up around 12, had to call her like 50 times to get her to come back. So after she gets back, she calls, AGAIN. Puts him on speaker, he's like ''btw tell Lena I said hi cuz I know she can hear me right now.'' Smo0th move, Anna. She's like ya predstavlayu ona navernoe ahhuela kogda ti ei vse rasskazala... LMAO, I'm like ''well.......'' Then we were laughing at was saying: he's like ''Anna, u menya bilo stressovoe utro, ya tebya pozvonyu potom, u menya stress. Anya uspakoisya, idi vipey chai, ne pridumay sebe nichego.'' I'm like NOW WHY DOES THAT SOUND LIKE NIK?

Anyhow, after we had nothing to do so we went to go stalk my ex. First off, WE ALMOST GOT LOST. Second, HE WASN'T THERE, actually NOBODY WAS THERE. So I'm wearing like everything pink with a pink hat... I'm like ''Anna, do you think he'll notice me if I wear the hat.'' (stupid question) I mean I'm not invisible, unfortunately.. Eventually, we gave up, she's like ''I bet they were hiding in the bushes'', I'm like ''oh yes, definitely they all knew LENA WAS COMING, i vse v kusti.'' She's like ''yeah & Katya too'' I'm like nu esli ona v kust pomestitsa togda u nih vse idet po planu ;)'' I know, write about not you're gonna say ''OOOOHHH'' I know, I know, comebacks :) The best one I heard tho was from him, when I asked him to ''go down'' so I can write the card on his back...yeaaah. cute.

The day felt so0o long, I went to go chill with Igor at the movies after. Told his everything, hmm funny.

omg, 5 am I don't know why I'm doing this but Anna's about to be here because her bf won't bubble with her & somehow I'm involved in this... Not that I was sleeping, but I was ABOUT TO...until. yeah. anyway I shall tell you how that goes later, after I come back & GET SOME SLEEP.

I don't even feel like writing anything lately...
Asya's leaving to freakin Pocanos for four fuckin days! lol
In the past two days (even though it seemed like much longer) I've been ''enoying my summer''...

On Mon. I went out for sushi with Igor... turns out all you need to get back in the mood is a friend, a candle (or two), an energy drink, some sushi, & SWINGS!

On Tuesday Asya & I were ''reunited''...half way lol. I was, she wasn't. Me, her, Kostya, & Vitalik made a bonfire on the ''beach'' (if you must call it that), @ the abandoned park. Stupid fire took like half an hr to lit...& Kostya with his ''$200 lunch receipts'' Asya's like...''IT'S PAPER, does it matter how much?'' I swear all he knows how to do is show off, well okay I'll give it to him & make bonfires with his ''$500 receipts'' LOL & it kept dying so all of us went to go get some dry wood or whatever you can find there...
Only after I realized I should've followed him all the way through those stupid rocks, cuz he went like mad far while Asya & Vitalik watched over the fire. But whatever he chooses to be an ass, so why should I even bother to try??? Then he came back & we we're on opposite sides with the fire in the middle (so romantic, if only Vitalik & Asya went PO0F!) but yeah, I pick my head up & see he was looking @ me, mad awkward...
After that, Anna picked me up & we went for sushi, AGAIN. I swear I'm like a sushi freak. (Nik would knw...) But anyway, we're walking back through the park & I'm like ''something just dropped on my head'' & then it starts POURING like not even drops just like a waterfall! & I see lightning I RUN, this is like my second marathon this week I swear LMAO. & there's a garbage man hitting on me I'm like wtf lol...it's funny Anna's scared of the garbage man & I'm scarted of lightning, yet I'm running & she's standing there like an idiot. lol Yeah I can really tell Anna's not a runner, you know, neither was I until 2 days ago haha...
I rem. she two days ago she ims she's like ''So, who won the marathon?'' I'm like ''lol not me..'' Callin me frickin crazy, I'm like I'm not crazy, exercise is good for you, makes your heart healthy, gets your blo0d pumpin, but I would prefer not to do it in the 90 degree heat anymore =]

Yest. I spent the WHOLE day writing & drawing, posts of that comin so0n!
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Леха (3:00 AM):
дурочки:-)

INSURED by Mafia :-) (3:01 AM):
lol...I dnt knw whose worse
I dnt knw why Im tlln you this...arnt you & her like really go0d frnds? :-X

Леха (3:02 AM):
я не сплетник

Леха (3:03 AM):
то что я ее друг не означает что я пойду завтра ей на чай рассказывать все
если захочешь чтоб она знала, встретитесь и поговарите)

INSURED by Mafia :-) (3:04 AM):
lol nadeyus 4to net,mne eto sovsem ne nado )

INSURED by Mafia :-) (3:06 AM):
da ona zdes' voobshe ne pri4em, we broke ^ bc of me not her..

Леха (3:08 AM):
ор бекоусе оф хим)

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H G#
облака
A# D#
гонят в осень туман
H G#
над водой
A# D#
золотой караван
H G#
по лесам
A# D#
заплутали дожди
H G#
с ними я
A# D#
до капели не жди
пр.
G#
опять игра
E
опять кино
A# D#
снова выход на бис
G#
плетет судьбу
E
веретено
A# D#
за чертою кулис
G#
когда-нибудь
E
замедлить бег
A# D#
и уже не спеша
G#
увидеть как
E
берет разбег
A#
душа
снег летит
кружит время метель
над землей
белая канитель
по весне
ливни ринутся в бой
с ними я
возвращаюсь домой
пр.

Надо жить

Am E
Надо жить, мне сказала вчера
A Dm
При свечах, кинув карты, цыганка
Dm Am
И в осеннюю полночь ушла
F E
Спрятав слезы под шелк полушалка
Dm
Надо жить, только как и зачем
E Am
Если знаю, что все ты забудешь
Dm Am
Если в бликах венчальных свечей
F E
Не со мною стоять завтра будешь


Припев
Dm E
Обманом глаз прекрасных бредить
Am
Не каясь досыта грешить
Dm E
И для тебя одной на свете
Am
Лишь для тебя на свете жить
Dm E
И для тебя одной на свете
Dm E Am
Лишь для тебя на свете жить


Надо жить и терпеть эту боль,
Что попутчицей следует всюду
Надо жить и играть эту роль
Не хочу, не умею, не буду!
Надо жить и встречаясь с тобой
Каждый раз губ фальшиво касаться
И просить, и молить: Боже мой
Как с тобою любимой расстаться


Надо жить и всегда надо знать
И на миг ты моей быть не можешь
Но любить, и ходить, и искать
Тебя в лицах случайных прохожих
Эй, цыганка постой, погоди!
Что ж в ночи ты так быстро пропала
Черным веером жизнь отведи
Ту, которую ты нагадала

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''Destiny.''- Zero 7.



I lie awake
I've gone to ground
I'm watching porn
In my hotel dressing gown
Now I dream of you
But I still believe
There's only enough for one in this
Lonely hotel suite

The journey's long
And it feels so bad
I'm thinking back to the last day we had.
Old moon fades into the new
Soon I know I'll be back with you
I'm nearly with you
I'm nearly with you

When I'm weak I draw strength from you
And when you're lost I know how to change your mood
And when I'm down you breathe life over me
Even though we're miles apart we are each other's destiny

On a clear day
I'll fly home to you
I'm bending time getting back to you
Old moon fades into the new
Soon I know I'll be back with you
I'm nearly with you
I'm nearly with you

When I'm weak I draw strength from you
And when you're lost I know how to change your mood
And when I'm down you breathe life over me
Even though we're miles apart we are each other's destiny

When I'm weak I draw strength from you
And when you're lost I know how to change your mood
And when I'm down you breathe life over me
Even though we're miles apart we are each other's destiny

I'll fly, I'll fly home
I'll fly home and I'll fly home

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Дискотека Авария - Зло

Зло шагает по свету неразборчиво,
Стремится испортить то, что еще не испорчено.
Зло хочет сожрать все то, что еще не создано (/сожрано)**,
У зла своя (/Ужасная)** правда.
Эта правда называется ложью.
Пусть поднимут голову все те кровью умытые,
Когтями забитые,
Злом навеки прибитые.
Пусть крикнут чудовищу в пасть, ненасытному,
Мы силы добра! Мы еще не разбиты!
Мы еще поглядим, как зло от боли корчится,
От страха морщится,
В глазах ложь-притворщица.
Запомни внимательно - силы добра даны тебе
Чтобы прибить эту лживую гадину!
Силы нечисти да будут навеки прокляты,
С земли изогнаны,
В сердцах зачеркнуты!
Если не мы сами,
Никто над нами вовеки не сжалится.
Гляди, оно уже приближается.

Как же вышло так?
Вроде жизнь твоя текла беззаботно,
В лету кануло зло, впереди опьяняла свобода.
И что, свобода, вот она -
Земля твоя продана., уже кем то подобрана,
И тобою будто одобрена.
И друзья твои биты, разорены и унижены,
В новой жизни счастливой немногие выжили.
Вместо крепостей строят хижины
Себе на обочине.
Попробуй угадай, кто на очереди.
Зло не делает ничего наполовину.
Ты решил - его нет,
Оно просто зашло тебе в спину,
Вместо битвы лицом к лицу, по-честному.
Но слово "честь" немодно и безынтересно.
Зло всего лишь выжидало твоего одиночества,
Когда ты забыл все святые пророчества,
И все в страхе вокруг.
И правды сказать никто не решается.
Но ты помнишь - оно приближается.

Зло улыбалось тебе в подделках киношных,
Когда ты забыл свое великое прошлое.
Оно было скучным и незанимательным,
Вот и не спят святые и мудрые матери.
Зло пожинает плоды, что когда то посеяло,
Ты окружен с востока, юга, запада, севера.
С моря, с суши, с земли, с космоса.
И внутри сидит чужой и управляет твоими помыслами.
Ну что, подбросишь друга своего заклятого
На своем горбу к воротам рая звездно-полосатого,
Гордясь, что тебе доверили
Пососать леденец на обломках вековой империи?
Ты рожден на земле отваги и мужества,
Ты остался один, только коршуны кружатся,
И жалкие карлики,
Что вчера улыбались угодливо,
За чужою спиной уже плюют тебе в морду (/спину)**.
Вспомнишь ли ты, господам подавая салфетки,
Тот праведный меч, что завещали великие предки?
Но что-то продано, что-то украдено,
А что-то в шкафу пылится рядом с медалями прадеда.
В век свободы слишком много думать опасно.
Есть компьютер и стул.
Жизнь так прекрасна.
Легкое порно и жесткое видео,
Жизнь прекрасна и удивительна.
Ты прости, старик, что мы тебе тут по ушам наездили.
Пойдем займемся популярными песнями.
Но ты помнишь,
Победу одержит лишь тот, кто сражается.
И пусть себе, сука, приближается...

** Специфическая особенность песен Дискотеки Аварии - некоторое место в тексте поется сразу в два-три голоса, причем слова различны. Жирным шрифтом выделены те самые места. В скобках - альтернативный вариант (в песне оба варианта звучат одновременно, накладываясь друг на друга).

LeNnY15200 (12:20:19 AM): wats up...
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:02 AM): nothing.
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:12 AM): youre so desprate 2 find me, Im invis.
LeNnY15200 (12:21:05 AM): i knew u were invisible...
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:31 AM): hmmm..
LeNnY15200 (12:21:14 AM): i see that u and nik got back together
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:46 AM): why am I not surprised?
Fire Of Eternity (12:20:53 AM): so if you see why are you imin me?
LeNnY15200 (12:21:50 AM): w.e.
LeNnY15200 (12:21:50 AM): bye
Fire Of Eternity (12:21:15 AM): bye.



There was so no point in that. I do not intend on talking to someone who thought he was only right & never wrong, & who was giving me ''advice'' he KNEW was UNNECESSARY. point blank.


In any case, I feel what I feel, & I feel BAD. Sometimes all you think about is what you want, & to get what you want. But now that I got it I think of how he must feel, I didn't give him much of a choice between ''yes'' & ''no'' :-(
So I took everything back, but he refuses to change his mind. It's bad for both of us if he just feels guilty or bad, but I created this problem myself by not really giving him a choice to begin with. Thinking ''I'll get what I want even if it means stepping over heads'', never works! Because then come the complications like a guilty conscience, & we all know that is more than enough to bother oneself. Though I will admit, that was my ''worst case scenario plan'' from the beginning, I never thought that actually it working would even bother me. I mean even I would feel better if I knew he CHOSE to be with me out of love, not because of my stupid fool-proof tactics! =(
I really hope he goes to the prom with me, there's no sense in going there without an actual date, & I don't consider going with a guy friend- an actual date. Problem is I already got my pretty red dress, & gold heels...but I don't know how he's gonna get the money before the 15th- which is the ACTUAL prom. :-(


A lil off topic...but I was watching the stories of famous parents' kids. It's so ironic how their parent would do anything for their kids NOT to go into show business, yet they continue doing it themselves...while talking about drugs, fakes, & lies.