god...have my job interview tonight...so freakin NERVOUSSSSSSSSS!!!!

Настроение сейчас - excited 'n' thrilled
В колонках играет - Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Date with the night

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Настроение сейчас - больное
В колонках играет - Radiohead - Motion Picture Soundtrack
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как удалить этот факаный фотоальбом?!?!?

Настроение сейчас - ill
В колонках играет - Iggy Pop - Tell me a story

life is desire. life is wanting. life is aching. life is passion. life is feeling.

kak растопить моё сердце

Настроение сейчас - weary
В колонках играет - Radiohead - Lozenge of Love

it was the day I faced my infinite stupidity again

...i got home from school, and, to my great surprise, some bloody scumbag wanker (electrician) cut off the electricity supply!!....It was outrageous, impudent, tactless goddamit! I have obediently paid all the bills my whole life, and then?!?!?..such a disgrace!

yeah, but I decided not to panic and just wait for a bit, cherishing a hope that the electricity will just appear as suddenly as it had disappeared...but it was useless, nothing happened...

so, finally, I gathered all my courage and went down to the cellar to check the electricity meter...it turned out to be covered with some thick plastic cover which was impossible to open with my bare hands, so trying to be creative I got a pair of scissors in order to break open the godforsaken thing...

feeling like a burglar of some kind i eventually managad to succeed in my dirty job, but all of it turned out to be in vain, since there were no switches to turn or buttons to press in order to influence the electricity problem..

It was the first time I felt stupid

...and thought that the perspective of becoming someone criminal would definitely be a total failure in my hopeless case..

however, I still refused to give up, for life without electricity turned out to be completely impossible! Nothing was working - the kitchen stove, the microwave oven, the TV, the computer, the stereo system, and there was no light of course..It was no good, so I decided to fight until the end!

Opening the door of my flat, I noticed (though not for the 1st time) a suspiciously looking shield on the wall, and it mustve been providence that told me to look inside! I did, and what exposed to my sight was another, special electricity meter with lots of switches labelled on/off on each side....

God Almighty! - i thought...it was the 2nd time I felt stipid

...more stupid than the 1st time...there are times when you just feel like someone decide to have a good laught at you, and this is how I felt...because one of the switches was just turned to off...and all that was demanded from me was to turn it on to get the elcrticity running again!!...

shame on me!..stupid...(:

Настроение сейчас - incredible
В колонках играет - sonic youth - kill yr. idols

- ..can you belive this?..
- ..belive what, you mean?
- ..dunno, just belive..in it..in something...
- ..not until there is a second chance.......
- ..makes no sense...what you just said..
- ..i know...but nothing does anyways...........................

Настроение сейчас - abs(i/e)nt(h)
В колонках играет - Sonic youth - Kotton Krown

...they say you can never quit, and i suppose they are perfectly right...

oh, you dweeb!!!...

Настроение сейчас - ashamed and reckless
В колонках играет - The white stripes -The Denial Twist

"i ain't no motherfuckig quitter"



...but i quit...

Настроение сейчас - ready...
В колонках играет - Queens of the stone age "Lightning song"

brittany got back from eurotour last thursday. looking back, she doesnt remember almost half of it - consequences of drinking, of course. she came to my place on saturday. caroline cooked us a wonderful dinner. then we started drinking. i got tipsy, brittany - completely smashed (she could hardly walk) and caroline stayed almost sober (bloody germans - resistible like shit!!) we wanted to go to pitstop, but...we lost brittany on the way somehow..caroline was walking in front of us, and i was trying to carry brittany, not letting her fall on the pavement. then she started whining that she urgently needed a pizza slice. i was continuously trying to persuade her that she didnt, and if she only took a bite - it would all come out of her immediately. but she didnt want to listen to my moral teaching at all and, despite my holding her as fast as i could, she eventually managed to escape and madly rushed ascross the street heading to the pizza parlour...then i found myself shouting all the worst swearwords i knew trying to make her go back, but she obviously didnt give a shit...its truly amazing how determined drunken people are sometimes!! then i tried to make caroline do something about it, stop brittany somehow, but it was too late - she was off and away,and the last thing we heard from her was "i'll see you, guys, in pitstop in 5 minutes!..." ok, so we went to pitstop...and even after 30 minutes brittany did not show up..we started to worry like hell, and after around 1 hour of waiting decided to go look for her. she was not in the pizza parlour, she was not in knuds garage, she was not in crazy daisy...jesus fuck! then caroline suggested brittany could have met someone she knew and had gone to shakers with him/her. honestly, i found this assumption very unlikely, but as we had no other place in mind, i agreed to go there...holly shit! it was the worst place ive been to in my whole goddamn life! full of snobbish sluts and pricks just willing to get laid...so repulsive! we left that place as soon as possible, since brittany wasnt there. feeling exhausted and starting to sober up, we went home, not having a faintest idea about where on earth brittany could be and what couldve happened to her. around 8 o'clock next mornig i was suddenly awoken by furious knocking on the door and ear-splitting ringing of the doorbell, which indicated that whoever there was, willing to come in, he'd probably been knocking until he was heard for at least 10-15 minutes. i dont even know why, but all that noise seemed so scary and horrible to me, that i woke poor caroline, saying that someone was trying to knock out the door and that i was very afraid that they would attack us. caroline said that i should go to hell and forced me to go look who was that ominous and eerie stranger at the door. i did. it was brittany. i was just about to kill her for disappearing the other night, but she felt just the same way about me for not opening the goddamn door for so long. it turned out that fortunately nothing bad had happened to her - shed just fell asleep on the pizza parlour floor...fuckin awesome! luckily, the guys owning the place allowed her to sleep there and even gave her a cup of coffee after she'd woken up...

a pretty fucked up story, i know

...Douglas, eyes shut, saw spotted leopards pad in the dark.
"Tom!" Then quieter. "Tom...does everyone in the world...know he's alive?"
"Sure! Heck, yes!"
The leopards trotted soundlessly off through darker lands where eyeballs could not turn to follow.
"I hope they do," whispered Douglas. "Oh, I sure hope they know."...

Ray Bradbury

Настроение сейчас - transparent
В колонках играет - Sonic youth "Dripping dream"

немного новых-старых фотографий в фотоальбоме

Настроение сейчас - (drinking, but husssssssshhhhhhhhhh!)
В колонках играет - the Cure "lovecats"

ok, so heres what happened..i got drunk..completely, totally, fully and inevitably drunk...id had 3 bacardi breezers, 2 cans o beer and a couple of glasses of portwine..and then caroline came over...i helped her kill her bottle of martini..then i puked...then i went to bed..then she woke me up and gave me a cup of really strong tea..then i puked again..after that, i started to feel much much better and a bit relieved, id say..then we went to pitstop..Pepe was working at the entrance so he let us in for free...i missed the band where a guy from my school played, but whatever..i got to see some of the other great bands though..then i helped pepe with his work by stamping the people who were getting in..it was really fun, i liked it a lot!..then i met a coulple of guys from manchester and london...loved their britttttish accent)))..then me and pepe went to buy something to eat..he insisted on buying me a pitabrød - i didnt resist) then we got back and i met Runa (the other bouncer from pitstop) who started to torture me again! tickled me almost to death, bastard!!!) then was trying to hint at the fact that he liked me and blah-blah-blah, but then Søren told him i was too beautiful to be together with a guy) i accepted that as a compliment, but told them that i did have a boyfiend..so...no expectations, guys!...it worked..then caroline found a guy to spend the night with, and i went home..what i discovered, after opening the door was 3 , no 4 empty bottles which i immediately went to throw away...must have been a funny sight - a person throwing away empty bottles at 5 o'clock in the morning) but, honestly, i didnt give a shit)...so, here i am now - writing all this crap instead of going to sleep..which im gonna do just righ now)


good night, everyone!

Настроение сейчас - pleasantly tired

brittany saw Smashing pumpkins live, and she said that they totally sucked...well, might be true, but still..just the thought of seeing them would make me so goddamn happy...yes, i wish i was her...

а ещё, у меня почти закончился нюхательный табак..обидно, однако!..

Настроение сейчас - пьющее
В колонках играет - Smashing pumpkins "Rhinocerous"

итак, завтра последний экзамен!! наконец-то!...а вечером - pitstop. концерт с участием группы одного чувака из моей школы...такое просто нельзя пропустить. Да ещё и Josep на дверях работает...наверняка бесплатно пустит. Дааа...очень даже неплохо, когда знаешь половину охранников...и ещё, очень надеюсь, что Ken туда не притащится...ненавижу...lousy fuck!!!!

пошла я готовиться...

Настроение сейчас - самой не верится, но, по-моему, хорошее...
В колонках играет - Nirvana "They hung him on a cross"

передозировка химии
завтра экзамен
бля!...

Настроение сейчас - невменяемое
В колонках играет - ...solubility product of lead chloride equals the concentration of lead ions times...

Nu er det tid til at skrive lidt på dansk. Jeg vid det godt, at i ikke kan forstå noget, men det er fuldstændig lige meget til mig! I giver ingen skidt om hvad jeg skriver alligevel. Men jeg tanker bare - hvorfor læser i så alt hvad jeg skriver? I kender mig ikke, i vid ikke hvad for et menneske jeg er...er det ikke mærkeligt??...jo, det selfølgelig er...men jeg skal i butikken nu...så må i undskyld mig...hvis i vil. Og hvis i ikke vil, så kan i SKRID AD HELVEDE TIL

for fanden!!
(nu føler jeg mig meget bedre!)

fuckin søndag

Настроение сейчас - ulykkelig
В колонках играет - Pj Harvey "The slow drug"

"капли дождя на тебя молятся"

каждую осень ты плачешь


Пройти тест "какая ты стихия?"




хаха!! если бы только "каждую осень"...

я переехала
теперь у меня есть балкон
теперь у меня две комнаты
теперь всё новое
и непривычное
и немного чужое
но это пройдёт
скоро


а ещё мне немного грустно. не хочется даже красивых фраз и напыщенных слов. всё одно. и, что бы ты ни говорил, я знаю, о чем ты думаешь. потому что я думаю о том же. потому что за всем этм лишь пустота. ты - бог. создавай свой мир - какой хочешь. включи там солнце, а, если не хочешь, - нарисуй серым тучи. но ты не сделаешь этого. потому что не умеешь. потому что не знаешь как. потому что не веришь. тогда оставайся здесь. а я подойду и обниму за плечи. тебе кажется, что ты спишь? что всё это сон?...а что по-твоему жизнь?...


...и я тихонько шепну тебе: "открой глаза"...

www.churchofeuthanasia.org

ubei'te menya - mir stanet lu4she