Порой так хочется рассказать то, что кипит в глубине. И ведь это - только одно. Хочется, чтобы это стало понятным кому-то. Но зачем? "No one will speak _with_ you!". Not "to you", but "with you". Потому что уже замучал. Или напряг - о!, как хорошо я помню эти реакции добрых помощников! И такое настроение в ЭТОТ день. Вообще-то сегодня 15-е марта, но этого никто не узнает.
En dag, når ég skal overgå öllu þessu steinu, ég vil bleve kald og hö3limarkende, som alla þessa mænniskor æru. Inkein manð ne æer gettas ölsku från még.
Ég _vil_ mynða for alltíð þessu örðu från K. om illnaþa mín og það damnation, það hun planterað för mín sjél. Það ær pánfyl! Ðú, havast Ðú feltað ein pán af það styrku?
Sure, that never...
Ok nú sémamk, som drår ég dýpara ok mér dýp inn í Höll. För kvá??? Why these sudden changes, why all these lies, I wanted ...
But shall I keep silence. It`s really unbearable sometimes. Ok ég ær ein små katse, som seeking tenderness. Bestoned.
Would I be now holier? Laughter, laughter, laughter, pain in the brain, caused by laughter. Laug... hter. Lau-gh-t-er. Le-'ofter.
Ki 'ezza kimmoveth ahva... M., hear this? Ki 'ezza kimmoveth ahva. !!! wa 'azza, not kind like motherly love towards her newly born beloved child... I mean ... no matter.
Ein vinnasteppa, som språgð om énska til meg! OH, OM ÉNSKA TIL MEG, ég skil gråtta!, hun åpnað för még Synga Syngurs... ok lénde, ég grått... För ÉG DRÖMM!!!
Yishaqeni minesheqoth pihu, ki tovim dodeycha miyayin.
Mashcheni axrecha narutza!, hviyani ammelech xadaro... nagila wenismaxa boach,
NAZKIRA DODECHA MIYAYIN, MEYSHARIM AHEVUCHA.
Dröm, bára dröm för még ær þessu öllu nú. Kvorför!!!!?
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*To dream that failed*
1 As always, watch thou my falls and raising back
And thine do I love to see so raw, appealing
To fare with me do I summon thy soul and mind
And thou balance me opening secrets of feelings
5 A tale of Blood and Flesh, mixed with one of Thinking
Thou - lie down with me, I - fly up with Thee
The dearest beating, and the dearest warm of hearts
A lesson, an experience, a path, a way to be...
{
9 But, please, don't think, that I'm so narrow
And can understand the life only so...
Wider than may imagine thou I see,
Wider than may imagine I seest thou...
13 There is no wish to fall,
No wish to loose, no wish to suffer...
Although all themes are open,
Some of them are forbidden.
17 For the question of Dying for Love is strong...
Though Living for Love is Sacred.
19 Let Us build what we want of our Life.
And Let Us Hope, and Live, and Love...
Together.
}
written somewhere in the beginning of year 12+8 (2003 e.v.)
#Although the text hereof seems so @futurous@, the fact
#that all failed (see title), and the
#"lying with me and flying with thee" showed up
#its inconsistence... with these persons...
#lines from 13 to 18, also 19 'til end are
#nevertheless actual all the ways...
#(later inclusion, 02.06, y 12+9 (начало лета 2004 года))
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