me and my mother decided to have a sushi party
we ordered all kind of sushi
hehe
p.s. i kind of feel need to be loved right now. i want a bf

just came home from yesterdays concert.
it was mad fun!
too bad irina couldn't go b/c she had no id w/ her.
we met olgas friends (all guys) and danced all night w/ them.
i stayed at olgas place over night b/c it was way to late for me to go home on my own.
i met a few cute guys. and dennis did not even speak to me that night. haha. whatever. i saw a cuter guy.

will just called me before his volleyball game and asked me to wish him luck
and than he said that they are betting on a game and if he wins he will call me and invited to a cup of coffee and if he loses he won't call me agian.
haha.
is this my lucky week or what?
everyday new guy calling me......
hahaha
go sexy me!!
go girl!
yeah

victor just called, man what a push over!
so he is like:
"hey listen, i am busy tomorrow and monday , but so how about we get together on tuesday evening? , cool?"
WTF????
u don't call me like that and decide when u want to date me. we are not even friends!!!!
victor today, alfonse yesterday, vern is mad at me, andrew pokes me on the facebook, it all looks strange.
either i am getting really really popular OR andy was right : they made a bet who would get me first..........i will show them who will get me....NO ONE , but i accept the rules of the game and i will play them ........
i will pretend that i like each of them and will flirt everyone, and than slowly let them down......
i am an evil bitch......
MUHA MUHA MUHA

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yeah, i am going to Мумий Тролль !!
i wanna dance, i wanna dance, i wanna dance w/ my girls
yeah

alfonso, greg and walei just called me
we ended up talking about drugs???
wtf?

"got to get up, to get down"
wanted to go w/ vern to ladytron, but the tickets were already sold out
wanted to go w/ olga to mumii trol, but she canceled on the last minute, bitch.
so now i am sitting at home on my sping break doing absolutely nothing.
victor invited me to his bday , smoking and karaoke , but i decided not to go, he is not really my friend.
so thats about it.
sad.
all alone.
sitting at home.
doing nothing.
i dont' even feel like studying. :-(sad

i have standards

today as i was talking to my parents i got an idea: what it would be like to earn 5K a month and live totaly by yourself.
no bf, no kids
spending all these money only ON MY SELF
yeah!
i could go shopping EVERYDAY, eat WHAT I WANT and go WHERE EVER I WANT
yeah! can't wait till this time will come :-)) its like an american dream!

my lower braces are finally off....
yeah, now i have beautiful holiwood smile :-))))

p.s. that thing about waking that suppose to make u happy really quick is true! i tried that today, as i walked out of my doctors office i walked about 6 blocks to the duane reade ,than to the shop boutique, than payless, than fabco, than rainbow, than citi bank and finally icecream store where i bought myself a big tropical cone w/ colourfull sprikels, mm , i got a lot of attention walking home w/ that huge green-orange-pink-white cone :-))
i enjoyed my walk :-))

p.s. i paid for my ticket to italy , i will have one fly stop at madrid both ways:-) spain, yeah, (for like 2 hours when i go there and for 4 hours when i will be going back) , than i will arive to rome , where i will have to buy a ticket for the train to go to florence, i can't wait.
its going to be so exciting :-))))

came from the doctor ,
1 down 2 more to go. i like to take care of myself.
i even requested a copy of my blood test, so now i can do my own analysis.
and i am officially on diet : which consists of : MEAT MEAT and only MEAT
and lots of iron vitamins. ew

that fucking weat bread is really working :-)
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Five things likely to make you happier in the short term

Tuesday, 26 July 2005

Here is my list of things to give you a short-term "hit" of happiness. Of course, these things won't solve your long-term problems, but they are useful tricks to giving yourself some relief when it all seems too much.

Each is virtually guaranteed to give you some satisfaction, but they won't work unless you try them. Sometimes, misery and depression can all become a bit too comfortable. Taking action, however minor, can appear like too much effort. It's so much easier just to hang around the house feeling bad, than doing something about it. At least with your misery, you know what to expect - and even better - it doesn't take any effort. Right?

Wrong.

So before you read my list, make a promise to yourself that you will do one of the below right now. The lazy, miserable part of your mind will almost certainly dismiss them as useless. It will try to suck your energy and glue you to the chair, bed or couch. No matter how much your internal pessimist tries to talk you out of it, pick one of the below and go and do it the very second you finish reading.

If you choose not to, it's time to admit to yourself that you prefer being miserable to being happy, and that is the root cause of your sadness.

Here's the list...

1. Go out for a walk
If there's one thing that's virtually guaranteed to make you feel better, it's going for a walk. Walking is one of the most therapeutic things any person can do. The fact that so few of us do it anymore is probably a big factor for the growth of professional therapy.

I'm not talking about power walking, or a jogging, or even purposeful marching. What I'm talking about is an aimless wander somewhere. Walking for its own sake. Do so for at least half an hour. You'll be amazed how much better it will make you feel.

Preferably, choose somewhere picturesque, such as a park or a beach or up to a hill with a view. Everyone has somewhere nice like that not more than a short drive away. But if you can't make it somewhere picturesque for whatever reason, just go for a walk nearby, even if that means through a suburb or an industrial area.

In fact, promise yourself that you'll take up walking as a regular habit. Spend at least an hour and a half a week doing it. If you can, replace short car journeys with walking. Take a little longer to get where you're going and put it down to health time - both mental and physical.

2. Do something fun that you haven't done in a long time
We all have regular activities that are supposed to be fun. The problem is that sometimes we overdo them. They become so integrated into our routine, that their ability to thrill us shrinks.

Nothing excites quite like something new. So go out and do something fun that you haven't done for a while, or even something that you haven't ever done before. It could be bowling, going to the cinema, playing mini-golf, having a swim in the ocean, going kayaking, learning to sail, having a barbecue or going for a picnic. The most important thing is that it's something that gets you out of the house and that it's fun, not work or self-improvement. Look on the web, in the newspaper, or a book of local activities if you can't come up with something.

Make a day of it. Take a friend if you can, but if not just go on your own.

3. Do something creative
We are creative beings. Among humanity's first achievements were artistic - painting in caves, telling stories, making music, preparing nice food. It is something so deep inside us that it forms part of our souls. There are so many creative things you can do, that it seems silly listing suggestions for you, but I'm going to anyway. Here are some creative acts you can undertake right now:
Draw a picture.
Create a story, if you've got children, tell it to them.
Paint something.
Do some woodwork.
Knit something.
Make some music.
Write a poem.
Make some pottery.
Sculpt something with clay.
Cook something delicious from a book of recipes.

If you're still short of something to do, go down to your local art and craft store and look for something, they have hundreds of options. Stock up on some of the tools and get going!

Don't worry if you're not good at what your doing, and don't get hung up on trying to do it perfectly. Enjoy yourself with it. If you find you're no good at it, laugh and amuse yourself with how hopeless you are at that activity. If you're drawing, and find your skills are lacking, try to draw the silliest picture you possibly can.

4. Complete some minor chore that you've been avoiding
Now I'm not going to pretend that you're going to enjoy the chore - you're probably not - chores are chores after all. But a chore completed can really help to put your mind at rest.

Tidying and cleaning a dirty room is no fun. But, the feeling of satisfaction and achievement that comes with looking at the result can really lift your Читать далее...

-"so what will you be after graduating from college?"
-"a i will be unemployed?"

rainy day + first day of period = totaly fucked up day

i just came home from my party yesterday.
it was awesome (except somethings)
i stayed there from 6 pm till 8 am.
than i went to spell from 8 am - 1 pm in a library (dah, it was so uncomfortable. ) and at 1pm i went to my class. well, i went only to the first half of the class and i cut the other have b/c i couldn't take it anymore.
so yesterday: i meet so many new ppl. i tried speed dating... hehe it was fun.
i broke up w/ andrew (well its not like a broke up b/c we never were together , but i finanly told him -no-and that its over) he was very pissed off. and drunk. man i got scared of him for a moment. he was so drunk , than when he was sitting next to me he was breather in my ear and trying to fliert. i want sex was writting all over him. so i had to let him go.
alfonso likes me, yeah, the girl from fro said so and he maid home cooked browness just for me. oh how cute......but his brother is cuter...but he doesn't speek much english, and his jamacian assent is too hard to understand.
i met stan, andrews friend. he wanted to dance salsa w/ me and kissed my hand for no reason......haha:-)
we were playing taboo at 4 oclock in the morning, it was crazy , i couldn't guess anything, not even one word! and ka wai tried to wissper some answers into my ear , but i still couldn't get it...
anyway, i have to go sleep :-)
it was fun:-)

god i was dreaming about him all night.
this is crazy and got to stop

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just came from a date w/ andrew
it was great
well, ok we went to see school play - fausts- and it sucked a lot.
but we had a great time together.
he asked me to go out next week.
we didn't kiss. we went out just like friends. i asked for it and thats what he did. it was perfect. i really start to like him now. hope he feels the same way.
there was one of the actors on stage who was fat - so i said it outloud "its not a bride , its like 2 brides in one" god, it was emberrasing. a guy turned around and gave me a strange look, i appologized. haha. i made a fool out of my self. haha i don't care, i know i was mean, but what the hell, they screwed up the whole play(they cut the half of it)
p.s. a girl named "candy" got a better grade on the finance test than i did. wow. she was sitting next to me. i can't believe it. candy did better than i did. its so ironic. funny.
god, its late, i am off to bed, i can't think or type clearly anymore :-?
happy :-)great evening

fu***g biatch , she ruined my day
i feel so stupid for telling her everytime about my lovelife.
i know its my mistake for doing that.
she is my best friend, why does she uses it against me?
why is she so jealous.
i knew this would come up.
i don't want her as a friend anymore.
she stood me up a million times.
she is a horrible friend.
olga! i hate you.
now that my day is ruined i have to go and take my fin test. great. the most important class to me and i can't think of anything but her fucking message on my facebook. fucking facebook , it doesn't work when i want to delite this message so badly . i don't want anyone to see it. its a curse and a lesson for me to stop sharing my stories w/ her. she is not that kind of person that you can share w/. she is fun, but she is not ur best friend. i guess i deserve it. its not the first time she does it to me.
this has to end. she thinks that andrew is w/ me because we made out on a first day we met and now that he is jsut comming for more . and she tells me that after her date was ruined. well thats ur problmes if he stood u up. i can't trust u anymore. this is it. now i only have one best friend in my life - myself. and my good friend irina, who is also times to times gets jealous of me. but at least she is loyal and likes me a lot at the same time.

good news: i got accepted into my study abroad program :-))

olga is pissing me off!!!!
today i run out of the class to the helpline just to show off how hot i look today, i pretended i need a bandaid......
its great to be a girl!
so fucking unpredictable :-)
gtg to class.....