He carries a book of sins uncompleted and takes it wherever he goes. His eyes pierce through people's souls like those of a snake searching for prey. Oh, how lovely is his gaze at first glance, and how terrifying at the next! His hatred seems to go unnoticed under the face of glory and wisdom. And no one knows...that every secret will be pulled out by him, extracted to the last bit, until a sinner may no longer stand under the piercing gaze of the snake...the snake whose eyes are red and hating. But it is impossible for the collector of sins to see through a statue of marble and a statue of stone. One symbolizes the dignity and will within a young figure of a nature unknown...the other symbolizes destruction and punishment to all who have caused pain and agony to the four saints...within a man the snake has always feared as the worst possible opponent in life- the magic actor. This is when the collector of sins curls up in the farthest corner of hell, only to watch in fright as the shadow of fear itself gains in on him and laughs, breathing revenge over him...
I am falling down to darkness,
Where my eyes will see no light,
Where I'll never see the nightmares,
Or the comet in the sky.
I descend down in the waters,
Thinking deeply of my life-
People crying over matters,
Wars that tore their hopes apart...
But my heart begins to tremble,
There is nothing I can do-
I have failed this world forever...
I have failed to save the truth.
As the days get hotter, by and by...I see a dream come up closer. Whether this is a hallucination or whatnot- I do believe it leaves a sign in my mind, over and over...and it cannot stop.
Stay with me- I do not wish to leave;
This night will kill me if you close your eyes.
Your heart is cold- there's nothing it can feel...
Yet you can feel the beat of my own heart.
You are and always- the demon of revenge,
But what is hidden under your existence?
You are a saint- the one that can avenge-
But you are silent and love-ridden to the end.
Please stay- your burning tears will heal-
And after that, I'll stand alone again.
If you will wish it- you may come with me-
But to this end of night- I beg for you to stay...
Настал тот день, которого я боюсь как....как fear itself! no х.х!
Этот день называется смерть интернету. Боже...помоги мне.
Я...уезжаю. И только Бог знает, сколько дней (а то и недель) не будет интернета.
А куда я еду? Вопрос особо тупой.
Сначала- к так называемым родственникам...а потом- в Новый Свет, господа.
Gomene за то, что автор "дневника" так и не смог сделать качественное фото на своем 10.5 megapixel фотоаппарате. Эх. Ну что тут...зато когда автор "дневника" вернется к себе домой на Новый Свет (а это есть Калифорния, США), то он (она) откроет новую галлерею в фотоархиве. Чего пожелаете- и природа, и косплей по мотивам любимых аниме...поезия и т.п. Весь этот бред.
А пока, после этого вечера, придется попрощаться.
no-o-o! why must I say goodbye to Trinity Blood and Gankutsuou?? TT_TT I won't be able to bear it...
P.S. Я конечно понимаю, что кто-то привык к моим весьма грустным и скучным причитаниям о жизни- но иногда эмоции заставляют человека вести себя как idiot. XD
[ let's go dancing under the rain ]25-04-2008 10:50
I want to dance under the rain with someone who will come along and laugh out his worries and give no damn about the problems one has
Проснулось вдохновение...да оно как сама жизнь! Я не знаю, что происходит- просто глупо было бы называть это "позитивом" - нет- это пробуждение и свежий вдох воздуха...красивые закаты...от них немало воспоминаний. Одиночество пропало- и куда? В нем я больше выплескивала свои чувства через карандаш (да и он стерся) - а сейчас...ну непонятно, господа...я себя потеряла в этой странной весне.
The time is coming for me to leave behind whatever I had a tie to...it may be the last time I see some people, and a long time before I see others. It may be a chance that I may never come back to the place I once called home, or it may be a chance to continue the life I was given beyond the borders of my birthplace. No nostalgia. There will never be a dream of the things I saw...only words will come to my ears, the words I used to hear from those I called friends. I once called friends...and there will be no forgetting.
There is no time to cower,
There's only time to run.
To make it to the hour,
The final shooting gun.
We'll never hide from bullets,
Behind another's chest-
We'll bleed and cry our tears out,
We'll fight for what is best...
There's no point, whatsoever,
In proposal to give in;
We'll live- it's now or never,
We'll fight until the end!
I can no longer make out those people in the mist, among the crowds of gray. I can no longer see what is best for this world, and I will not, until there will be a ray of light in what we call the eternal darkness. I will no longer lose that ray of hope...
[the world is cold, forevermore, and that way it will stay until the people change their ways]
Злопамятные, былые времена...не хочется вспоминать прошлое...это чужое прошлое из сплетенных в клубок жизни мыслей. Глаза с отвращением смотрят на беспомощность людей. Глаза...смотрят вдаль, жмурясь от вечернего дождя, смотрят на летящего сквозь мокрую пелену ворона...он улетит далеко, и никогда уже не увидет эти глаза, что так отчаянно смотрели. А я дышу весной, ночной сыростью, пропитанной запахом великолепных, вечно унылых берёз. И мне хорошо...оттого и плачу, что в моём мире этот момент длился бы вечно. А глаза мои не видят творения людей, эти застроенные земли, сожженные и утомленные роптанием желаний людских...мои глаза помнят лишь одно- где-то я уже видела это, где то, в городе тихих душ...
[и пусть будет дождь на лице её...чтобы не видали слёз болезненных тени за окном]
His lips are like a thousand stars;
They shine like dewdrops in the dawn.
His eyes go yonder, ceasing sighs,
So deep and drenching, drowning all.
He holds his tongue to lie once more,
To keep from her his dirty deeds;
He makes her heart and spirit soar,
For what he gives is what she needs.
A thousand strings will pierce her skin,
But she will never notice it;
A thousand kisses kiss her lips,
And take away the searing pain.
His lovely lips will touch her neck-
Until his hunger takes no more:
He'll bite her deeply like a snake,
And drink her soul forevermore...
Lighting a cigarette in through the night,
A shadow on end gazes into the sky;
The sorrow that fills him and bleeds out the light-
Is Sorrow his name?- do his lips ever lie...
His eyes keep the tears that have not fallen yet,
Those tears that will burn...that will tear him apart.
Poor Sorrow- those eyes I will never forget,
That smoke which will hide what is kept in that heart...
I have begun. My book. Yes. Воображение пробудилось после долгих, мучительных снов. Которые не оставят меня в покое. Но вот...теперь вопрос. Никто не обязан отвечать на него, но . . .кто автор этой картины? Я понимаю, не все мы фанаты жанра аниме, и уж редкие мы фанаты Trinity Blood...но меня долго мучил этот вопрос- уж очень понравилась тема "герои в костюмах злодеев". Поможите?
When you dream in the night, you leave your body to its rest- in search of someone you would not meet in reality. This is a chance...and it happened to me last night. Speaking to him was as though I had made a dear friend through mind conversation. Amazed...it's the strong wish that grants you your chance to see this person as though he were in front of you when you are awake in the dark. Awake in the dark...
Awkward.
Ah...the real Marilyn Manson is an artist. His reality is proposing what my dreams are like.
A haunted writer in an isolated castle is tormented by sleepless nights and visions of a girl named Alice. He finds himself becoming a symptom of his own invention.
“Now all my nightmares know my name.”
He is Lewis Carroll. Terrified of what waits for him each night.