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я в первые за много лет начал молиться.. точнее не могу назвать это молитвой.. скорее это было немое воззвание к какимта висшим силам.... я просто боялся.. за неё.. немой страх.. необоснованный возможно.. который не давал мне спать всю ночь........мечты.. беспокойство... пачка сигарет... боль в лёгких... но сна нет.. и только мысли.. мысли которые не дают тебе жить... лишь бы всё было хорошо... думал что не засну пока не будет звонка утром... который скажет мне что всё хорошо....... который успокоит меня..... но я даже не заметил как провалился в бездну.. сна без видений а лишь переполненном тревогой.. и мимолётными пробуждениям.........и............. а я думал что не родился тот человек который бедет для меня значить так много......... -

Сканер мозга

Сейчас в моей голове происходит примерно такое: [показать] А что происходит в твоей голове?

Настроение сейчас - m?)

loads of pozers say that BDSM and painfull sex is cool and their way of life)

but do they know what a fuck is that?>)


Sexual Sadism

Sadism is the act of deriving pleasure, often sexual, from mistreating others and therefore these people find others whom they victimize with their behavior. Some of the severe activities involved in sexual sadism include burning, beating, stabbing, raping, and killing. Usually the thoughts and/or behaviors of sexual sadism begin in adolescence or early adulthood. The behaviors are not only chronic, but they usually increase in severity with time. Disorder characteristic are:

Repeatedly for at least 6 months, the patient experiences intense sexual desires, fantasies or behaviors concerning real acts of causing physical or psychological torment or otherwise humiliating another.

This causes clinically important distress or impairs work, social or personal functioning. The sadism may take the form of restraining, beating, torturing, mutilating or even killing another (especially when associated with anti-social personality disorder).

Associated Features:
Abuse (past or present)
Somatic or Sexual Dysfunction
Sexually Deviant Behavior

Differential Diagnosis:

Some disorders have similar or even the same symptoms. The clinician, therefore, in his/her diagnostic attempt has to differentiate against the following disorders which need to be ruled out to establish a precise diagnosis.
Anti-social Personality Disorder
Narcissistic Personality Disorder

Cause:
There is no identified cause but the age of onset is commonly by early adulthood. Most paraphilic fantasies begin in late childhood or adolescence and continue throughout adult life. Intensity and occurrence of the fantasies are variable, and they usually decrease as people get older.

Treatment:

The course of paraphilia is usually chronic in nature and may require both the application of psychotherapeutic techniques and drug therapy.

Counseling and Psychotherapy [ See Therapy Section ]:

Cognitive, behavior, and psychoanalytic therapies are used to treat individuals with paraphilia's.

Pharmacotherapy [ See Psychopharmacology Section ] :
Hormones are prescribed occasionally for individuals who experience intrusive sexual thoughts, urges, or abnormally frequent sexual behaviors. Almost always the treatment must be long-term if it is to be effective.

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have you ever tried to kill yourself?.... to end this deamed existence..... suicide... what for?... "......"

Настроение сейчас - oh fuck.....

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end..........
(by William Shakespeare)


nice words.... you'll never know what is nobler... we are to shitty tj now it..... never...
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oh eah oh eah life s good!!!
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Настроение сейчас - hating myself

She tells me she dont know if she want to be with me.... I'm asswhole... I need her more than my own live more than air.. but... I've made too many mistakes....

nothing to tell