after nearby three weeks of being abandoned one can begin to understand, what really the importance had included inside that person.
useful or useless he or she was, loving or it had only seemed...
often people doesn't notice who are really them friends or lovers. and live with them, even not understanding that it will be nothing good from that alliance. and sometimes they rapidly, like a flashlight in a hole night, decide about it. and destroy 10-20-30 years old marriages, families.. they are becoming to hate each other, and couldn't excuse. but they couldn't excuse not somebody, but themselves. or i can say, theirself stupidness.
they love themselves and they couldn't decide that only their stupidness provided that foolish alliances, which spent so much time and nervs, and didn't give any good results..
so they try to deny their opponents in all had happened.

stupid people.

interesting, will i see a time when people will decide that their heads are full of lie, lie for anyone to himself?
or this will happen not earlier than cybrpunk era?

now it is of no meant.

i wanted to say about another type of people stupidness.

this type appears when people deny the truth and fall into a lie to themselves only for relaxing their nervous system. to become like all. because they have forgotten that a social status and money are no less a lie then power and authority, then a cheap cinematograph, then transparants on political meetings, then speakings of a president, then our world..

after three weeks of had been abandoned, i understand that i am still loving karina. it is not hard without her. but not too good too. and the real pity is her stupidness. she loves me, i know. but she decided that it is her level.
of course, now i can't provide her all her wishes.
but...
i want to be so perfect so she could say proudly that i am only her!
but.....
i'll become. be sure.
but be aware. your risk is much bigger than you can imagine.
don't become a kitchenwoman before.

my dream to fly away to london and live there forever is closer than i guessed)
so if everything'll be ok, i'll live there in 1-2 years! wooohhaaa!
and i am startin to forget russian language just now.

i hope, i'll say "goodbye, friends!" very soon!
only chosen won't be erased from my memory then.

let's forget all dreams
and think about tommorrow day...
i couldn't anymore, i amn't more againt this..
i amn't more againt us..
i don't anymore want
the foolish words
and other things don't needed
neither for you, nor for me..

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you are so far!
and i'll remain with my thoughts -
it's all allright
and may be it will be the next time that
i will hear your slow steps
in summer direction!...

Enjoy the day -
may be it is the last in city
with good weather
Cry for a love -
may be it is the last time when
we are together!..
try to go to sleep so last so you can...
and i will be proud of you
if you surprize the people -
who are so usual!

Chorus

it's no place on the earth
for one like you, but -
leave me alone!
and i hope, i'll be very far from you!
when you will lose your mind!
I'm like you too!

try to hide from that boring grey houses -
let them all be rained!
Remain alone in the silence -
you'll understand!
try to be so simple so you can be,
and i will be speaking with you,
and i will stop to be
so seemed lookes like you!

u think that u r for something better..
and u r so far from me now... even if u'll be close nearby,
u had become alien for me.. it happened when we had fallen into our lifes,
without of each other.. and only sometimes we reminded each other of our existance...
u hadn't cross the border.. and u abandoned me.
u think it'll be better.
i agree with your choice... it's hard, but i am.
but one note... u don't understand that u'v lost me.
lost me forever.
and may be ever at one good sunny day, u'll understand it, rapidly, like a flash in deepest sky..
and u'll sit down, anywhere u will be, and start crying. crying so hard so can cry a human,
who had lost the main love in his life...
u will cry because u ccould do nothing.. u won't even try to turn all back,
cause u will understand that u'd lost me. lost me forever.

i don't want to get any your reaction by these words, cause i know that u'll never read this post..
it is just an irony of bodom.....
it is a great pain, but i can't do nothing too. it is your choice, it is your life.
i am only the episode... the episode that had changed all your life.
u r an episode too.
and now i become really unhappy. and u too.
and u'v stolen a chance to became ever happy, stolen it from me and from u.
u'll understand it, ever.
but.. late.

Come with me
Into the trees -
We'll lay on the grass
And let the hours pass.
Take my hand -
Come back to the land,
Let's get away
Just for one day...

Let me see you stripped..
Let me see you stripped..

Metropolis
Has nothing on this.
You're breathing in fumes,
I taste when we kiss..
Take my hand -
Come back to the land,
Where everything's ours
For a few hours..

Let me see you stripped..
Let me see you stripped..
Let me hear you make decisions
Without your television -
Let me hear you speaking just for me!..

Let me see you stripped down to the bone!..
Let me hear you speaking just for me!..
Let me see you stripped down to the bone!..
Let me hear you crying just for me...

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аххх..



красота...

LI 7.05.22
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давай приколемся... и нахуй навсегда расстанемся?
ты будешь любить меня, а я тебя - и так всегда?
и мы не будем больше говорить друг с другом,
ведь мы больше не родные, не более чем трупы.
своя жизнь у тебя, и так же у меня своя -
ты ведь не хочешь... да так же не хочу и я,
но всё не важно, больше мы не будем вместе -
да похуй в принципе, не стоило оно всей этой песни

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я теперь забываю читать башорг, ведь раньше ты читал его вслух по телефону.
я теперь забываю смотреть, кто онлайн на сайте, ведь всё равно там не ты.
я теперь забываю поднимать трубку домашнего телефона, потому что это точно не меня.

но я так боюсь забыть что-то очень важное.
например, как я сидела на полу,
ты обнимал мои колени и говорил, что любишь.

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давно от песни не становилось...так...



Осень строит планы
За меня на этот год
Все что было с нами
Смоет равнодушный дождь

Не успев начаться
Лето подошло к концу
Вероятность шанса
Быть с тобой равна нулю

(Так жестока... Эта осень...)


Быть с тобой было сложней, чем могло показаться
-----------------------------
Я слишком хорошо узнал тебя чтобы понять
Что ты не сможешь никогда со мной о чем-нибудь мечтать
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Осень строит планы
Очень жаль тебя в них нет
Что же будет с нами
Город так жесток ко мне

Кто мог знать, что встречу
Я тебя еще хоть раз
Может даже в этом
Смысл был тогда для нас
В колонках играет: Комната - Мне нужна другая ты

LI 7.05.22

it is a bit strange that 4 month ago i existed on 0.5-1k per month and now 200-300rur is not a money for me at all =/
the last three days we drunk with friends in differnt expensive pubs and cafes, tonight we'll go to a strip-bar, and tomorrow we'll drink at the facultee and fuck fuck fuck fuck how long can i drunk?..
even although i became free from my job a week ago, i hav enough money and 30k for a tattoo done by Totaj is not avery dream. i use left and fakes actives and don't upset at all)
so the life is so unpredictable that i like it a bit more then before)

and one more - i have a new obsession (or idee fix, as it came from france)) - i want to buy a new coat in Maciavelli.
i don't know how much will it cost, but i think no less then 40k.. ))
BUT I WANT IT!!

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но не сейчас.
позже.

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