I have to listen your voice
In the Hell, in the Dark.
It was my own choise.
It’s late to put me a mrk.
I often forget my name
When I can’t see a blue sky.
Is it frighten? Yes, it’s the same,
But it is native, it is my.
I like to watch big white clouds
But hate grey sky like winter steel.
Itis my horrow, Dark and shout.
I’m afraid, I will be killed...
I’ve never been,
I last today.
I’m new spring.
I want to say
The Last Three Letters
dearest love,
I hope this message finds you well
as these endless thoughts drip from my soul
every single word secretly paints a fairytale
of when we will melt into one...
eyes forfeit sight to the pain
cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
as I cling to memories of you
I am so scared...so scared...I need you with me
were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?
it's me again,
is it me or am I wrong to be concerned?
will the beauty of your pen ever cross my eyes again?
was this all a lie? why?
were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?
make it stop, make this pounding in my head stop
fill my lungs with air, give me one more day to make her dreams come true
she understands right? that I'm not coming back...
she understands right? that I'm not coming back...
make it stop, make the pounding stop
I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back...
I don't know what happened...who would have thought my life would end up like this?
I didn't mean to hurt her, not hurt her like this...I can't feel my legs
I can't feel my legs and I can't even cry...how could somebody die like this?
if my words ever reach you I'll assume you don't care
never knew that silence could cut so deep or that you could twist the blade
now I curse all of your beautiful lies..
I love you and goodbye...
were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?
cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
as I cling to my memories of you...
Fer sure maybe, fer sure not
Fer sure eh, fer sure bomb
Pulled up at a stop light, did drugs on the dashboard
Look at the mess we made tonight
Kick off your stilettos
Kick off your stilettos
And fuck me in the backseat
Fuck me in the backseat
You're always falling in disguise
And always quick to compromise
Kick off your stilettos [oh yeah]
Kick off your stilettos
And fuck me in the backseat [fa-fa-fa]
Fuck me in the backseat
Fer sure maybe, fer sure not
Fer sure eh, fer sure bomb
This is the end of what we planned [of what we planned]
And now
We're not falling in love
We're just falling apart [so girl let's dance the night away]
This is how the beat drops
This is how the beat drops [just let your body go]
This is how the beat drops
This is how the beat drops [I wanna see your panties drop girl now]
All this time is wasted pretending we're in love
But that's all right cause you know
I love being with you and seeing you cry
So don't let go-o-o
Well don't let go, no-o
Don't let go
Fer sure maybe, fer sure not
Fer sure eh, fer sure bomb
Pulled up at a stop light, did drugs on the dashboard
Look at the mess we made tonight
Kick off your stilettos [oh yeah]
Kick off your stilettos
And fuck me in the backseat
Fuck me in the backseat
You're always falling in disguise
And always quick to compromise
Kick off your stilettos [oh yeah]
Kick off your stilettos
And fuck me in the backseat [fa-fa-fa]
Fuck me in the backseat
Fer sure maybe, fer sure not
Fer sure eh, fer sure bomb
This is the end of what we planned [of what we planned]
And now
We're not falling in love
We're just falling apart [so girl, let's dance the night away]
This is how the beat drops
This is how the beat drops [just let your body go]
This is how the beat drops
This is how the beat drops [I wanna see your panties drop, girl, now]
All this time is wasted pretending we're in love
But that's all right cause you know
I love being with you and seeing you cry
So don't let go-o-o
Well don't let go, no-o
Don't let go
No, jkjkjk lololol
I heart your fucking make-up
Oh my god, I love your hair
Is that a new tattoo?
Did that piercing fucking hurt?
No, jkjkjk lololol
We're not falling in love
We're just falling apart [so, girl let's dance the night away]
This is how the beat drops
This is how the beat drops [just let your body go]
This is how the beat drops
This is how the beat drops [I wanna see your panties drop, girl, now]
All this time is wasted pretending we're in love
But that's all right cause you know
I love being with you and seeing you cry
So don't let go-o-o [all this time is wasted]
Well don't let go, no-o [pretending we're in love]
But that's all right cause you know
I love being with you and seeing you cry
But that's all right
When he was on the streets he used to jack niggas
Ran around the project toting the mac nigga
He had niggas tip had em breaking him off
He had niggas clearing the block when it got dark
Now everybody thought that this nigga was real
But anybody holding a gun can kill
If niggas was on the block they ran when he came
He used to walk on the set and rob the dice game
This nigga was a dog out here in that world
Now he got to the pen and turned the girl
He walking like a bitch this nigga here twistin'
The bitch even sittin' down now when he pissin'
He hugged up with a man on the wall tongue kissin'
He family fucked up they don't even go visit
Now that's the difference between jail and the streets
With a gun you a killa
Without it you're a thrilla
[Chorus]
When you was on the streets you was a solja
And then you got fucked when you went to Angola
You hit the fucking wall with all that mouthin' off
And then you showed fear when you got round them big dogs
When you was on the streets you was a solja
And got turned out when you went to Angola
You hit the fucking wall with all that mouthin' off
And showed your true colors when you got round them big dogs
[Verse 2]
This nigga used to catch ballas slippin' and jack em
This nigga used to catch bad bitches and mack em
He used to serve niggas work out of town and tax em
He used to take his walk up on niggas and wack em
This nigga here name used to carry weight
Nigga passed with they head down couldn't look in his face
This nigga used to act a fool with a 4 4
Now he in the pen getting' shot in his go go
I had a feeling without that strap he was a hoe
Now it came out he done got that lifetime joe
Damn that's somethin' niggas is a trip
They don't open they lip if they ain't got a full clip
Shit never changed doing the same thang
On the streets ya bout it
In that place you're a jing-a-ling
With a gat you a man nowadays your with out it
You needed to be bout it
Cause you soft than soap powder
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
When you walking up the street with that heat ya creepin'
When you walking down the walk that pink ya sweppin'
When ya standin' over a nigga with that k you a dog
When you getting' that dick from the back you're a broad
you was a man puttin' niggas under white sheets
now that g-string up your ass you the beauty of the week
nigga told ya that out that here doing that crime
take it like a man you get popped then you get that time
you sayin' that you cool and you can handle it
before you got upstate you barely ate in the parish
you ain't got a gun now ain't even got a knife
You had two charges whodi fuck a fight
You can't take a ass whooping ya weaker than weak
Now ya getting your ass rubbed down with grease
You're a clown nobody feels sorry on the block
Ya got get it how ya live in that cell block
[Chorus]
When you was on the streets you was a solja
And then..
It's our time to shine through the down
Glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
Do you want a song of glory
Well I'm fucking screaming at you
and it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole
through everyone that feels it
well your never gonna find it
if your looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if your looking for it
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
and you never would have though in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you
from the way that you acted
to the way that I felt it
It wasn't worth my time
and now it's sad cause all I missed
wasn't that good to begin with
and now I've started you begging
saying things that you don't mean
it isn't worth my time
a line's a dime a million times
and I'm about to see all of them
Goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
you call my name when I wake up
to see things go your way
i'm coughing up my time
each drag's a drop of blood a grain
a minute of my life
it's all I've got just to stay down
why the fuck am I still down
I'm hoarding all thats mine
each time I let just one slip by
I'm wasting what is mine
you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself aive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
As of now I'm down straight up
and I can turn to the box for some peace
or a box for a piece
or a box for a smoke
but they're all gonna choke me
you're so crazy
enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me
for awhile I was cleaner than now
then I started to destroy myself
with things that i love now the things that i hate
until it finally broke me
fuck my ass
choke me