Today there was really amazing and nervous day,caus there was Gitler`s birthday yesterday,(I`m emo)for this reason I had to take off all my badges,had to not to use eyeliner and other.The most of normal emo stayed at home today,but i went for a walk with my two sisters(emo and punk).I and Polly were so nervous ,caus we r emo,so fascist could fight us.We went to the VDNH and bought some emo-things there.Then we took pics<they r here>.So i don`t want to write more,caus of time.
My sisters
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Me and Polly(49 pose of Kamasutra)
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We wish we can fly
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Me
If u don`t know,I`ll say it to u!May be i don`t know english so perfect as u and I don`t use any translators,for this reason plz STOP FUCK me about mistakes.And will know that it`s a dialect.
And so about a day.It was really amazing.Firstly i met with my friend Anetta and we went to put some money on my mobile phone and to drink up something.So Flash was really disgusting. haha We went to VDNH where i met girl from li.ru. I don`t know how she knew again me.May be i become popular. haha.After that we went on meeting with my friend and 2her friend(goth and punk).At first I thought that they `ll kill me,caus i look like emo but then.. We went to "childcity".I held Suicide`s cigarets and had to not to give tem to him. haha imagine how a little emo run away from a huge goth...
Yesterday I remembered one fact from my life when my best friend was dead on my hands...don`t ask me about this,caus i don`t wanna feel this anymore.I remembered this ,caus i saw an episode from film "The O.C.",when Marissa died.So i had the deepest depression and even took some sedative."The O.C." exected on me huge influence,caus i think it`s one of the most impressive and greatest films of all time.
My project was unsuccessful,caus of crying injustice of our world,but it was very useful to me.So will forget about it.
Did u see new clothing collection of Alex?If no,let`s click here http://heartbreakerclothing.net/photoshoots/photoshoots/april2007/april2007.html It`s as usual excellent. i think he made very original things. So don`t miss a chance and don`t forget to see it.
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Rima
Emilie and Erika
Well I`m here and Friday today! IOn the whole there was wonderful at school today: I even liked to sit at geometry, English in general has passed carefree, with VP as always was cheerful , but subjects was such dregs ,half of physics passed at making test for the program " Umniki i Umnizi " ( VP has written me down violently), `n` on biology in general was very very very funny!ppz... lol :] Weather on the one hand was very bad , but on the other it was very lovely, `n`we in fact were going to go on VVZ to wangle money for tickets for Diega on LP `n` here.. fuck! I already tired to write the project about Alexander, `n` I must to take an interview( by the way on VVZ too)! We awake to hope, that weather `ll be better tomorrow! I should buy alot so money is necessary, my grandmother `ll arrive the middle of month `n` I hope on her very much. I`m going to change my hairstyle, I search for a good hairstyle in the net, I won`t dyeing cauz Alex `ll kill me, though... Well still?! As always I`m waiting for Alex, in fact today Friday, but it`s similar vain.... All right , if i remember something more, I`ll write!
P.S. У кого-нибудь есть цветной принтер ?
и помогите мне, скажите как вы думаете реформы Александра как-то повлияли на будущее Росиии и вы вообще за его реформы ?(за,против,безразлично)-ответьте плиз!!!
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Holidays have finished! I liked so much this measured life " in day "! For all a holidays I ate a only 4 times `n` that in MakDak! `n` further the long list of what I have understood after the holidays (don`t sleep ;] ):
that even sXe can get drunk, that I can be real stupid `n` pass by, missed a chance,that money r always necessary , that it`s possible to reach Canada on foot or on 714 bus, that even in a drunk condition I choose the correct person, that poseurs have fucked the world `n` that I hate them most of all , that even on 14 roubles it`s possible to eat in MakDak, that Spanch Bob have 40 holes,that there r people - telepathists, that scars r awfully scratched, that I have the best best friends,that LP `n` Korn`ll come to Moscow, that me loves one of the most perfect guys of the net,that if don`t eat - u won`t die, that it`ll be a great mistake to put Sprite in bad with meal, that I love up to tears at night, constant dreams `n` glitches, that I hate Mail.ru, that I can present a badge or something else,that even ton of a varnish not don`t hold bang, that Suslik - the perfect guy, that I can help people, that I can see in eyes of the person that nobody sees, that I can quarrel with Kirill `n`.....
I can write more , but ... ;]
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lol Look at this! Even Alex there! XD
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Holidays began simply wonderful! On Friday I played football! It was fantastic, but all over again I persuaded for two hours Stasja `n` Ann to play, result: has gone only Ann `n` has exhausted after 15 minutes! I even regret, that there was no Lika in Moscow! `n` by the way have U ever seen how emo plays football? lol :]
Then besides on Friday fucking Sasha decided to fall out us with the sister, `n` in the most sitty way ! I already was going to go to Polly to settle everything, cauz she has belived in Sasha`s words! And the reasons were stupid:well the person such as the reasons! I wanted to lapse her so that her brains would stand on a place ! I `ll look, what I `ll make with her at school!
Yesterday I walked with Diega (as usually on Saturdays) on VDNH, then Kate joined, have gone to 70 pavillionin "Prodvizhenie", stood so in queue nearly 15 minutes, then sat on steps of the same 70 pavillion `n` laughed ,spoke `n` thought whom to pull out to take a walk! `N` (as usual)Suslik with hi friend came with scates! Then Katya has left us, `n` Diega `n` I walked to fountains `n` an old man(near 70 years)began to solicit persistently to us! Pedophilizm prospers! First we thought, that he has mistaken, but there was "he was searched for the second half"! I have told, that my name is Sveta, and Diega - Nastja! He spoke, that we such beautiful that grooms R necessary to us! Then he started to embrace `n` even has kissed Diega!AWFUL! I hardly have pulled her out from hands!...We went to MakDak, there was a huge queue `n ` a heap of hungry emo! There was a guy here to whom at "Prodvizhenie" we gaven 10 years. He was such sweethearted...XD! I have presented him a badge! Have still got acquainted with Olja(emo who knows everybody) `n` with her friend Ira (not emo)! We stood in a queue together, `n` a brazen blonde bought without turn! `n` I have given her shelban weightly! It was cheerful! We have gone to 70 pavillion on steps to eat ! Have eaten `n` have gone home! IF U SERCH ME AT WEEKENDS, `LL COME TO 70 PAVILLION(if u won`t find me at home)! :]
Well `n` still news from which I was in a shock! A picture below,Alex's creation (Alex Heartbreaker)! Yeah, yeah of this Alex, and it stood at his avatar! If U don`t trust - Ur problems! If it so necessary for U I`ll send a part of conversation! I simply inform U!
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Well what can I tell U?
I have made a site on [показать] One Canadian( his foto at the bottom) said to me that I cute `n` that I have really cute hair and a sunshine smile ]
There was a formula yesterday : wonderfull wheather(sun `n` wind)+ Alex letter to me + music = a heap of emotions and I crying with happiness in the street! In this moment I was so adored this world! MY MUM IS MY HERO! I am very grateful to her for everything, and believe me she made very much!
And still I go to Slovakia, again as well as in the past year we`ll come off there! And still here Piter in the end of year! :]
Upsets, that Mnusha was no here again,he haven`t money, and I can`t put,cauz I havn`t them too! I wish to pull him out tomorrow ,but it`s unreal!
And still I made friends with 2 girls from 9 classes `n` also met Lelja!
Today there was Masha's Birthday, was not so cheerful, but came off with Diega at the street after: it was fantastic up to horror! Took pictures with Stasja and Nastja - one of the photos is in an album!
It`s photo of the Canadian
Настроение сейчас - I`m tired,cauz I was shouted in the microphone above specified song!
During the illness much has understood `n` has solved:
1) I won`t cut my hands any more, cauz it`s a peacockery , especially hand doesn`t heal after that history with a horizontal bar...
2) I`ll search for a job,cauz `n`I ned the money,`n` to mum it`ll not prevent.
3) I decided to create group `n` to learn to play normally on a bass-guitar, I write a song in English - the full shit turns out I`ll tell to U, well nothing - a paper all `ll endure lol :]
In general at school drowsily and stupidly `n` I don`t know why,but I don`t want to left the school at all...... All this, let `n`not the most pleasant, conditions pleases me and draws. `n`still something is created with my sister-Polly, is similar to her has simply bothered to play a kindergarten, that is to potter with me! P me already frankly enrages. Mnusha `n` Alex goet lost somewhere `n` about the first I have doubts in general in occasion of.... `n` by the way Chrome lives at me now. Still that impudent creation which sleeps my on bed and `n` I pull out him from under a table constantly!!! lol :]
P.S. Фот думаю пифать фам перефод моей запифи ф перфом комменте,а фы как думаете?
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I just wanna say good bye, Dissappear with no one knowing
I dont wanna live this lie, smiling to the world unknowing
I dont want you to try, you've done enough to keep me going
i'll be fine, I'll be fine, i'll be fine for the very last time
Shortly:
1) I the leader at the concert `n` it`s necessary to lern a lot of words! And the main thing that wondering `n` annoying me that there was not any rehearsal . We(Lika `n` I) have to be in dresses (аа HELP ME!!)!It`s open `n` so all my cuts open too -it` s a terrible show not for nervous people `n` there `ll be a lot of them...
2)P has left with unknown stupid girl at my eyes. Firstly he waited for her for a long time while it gathere `n` they went away together... I there nearly haven`t burst into tears ... cauz of it I cut hands again, there is a lot of blood... I know that I promised,but the soul hurts and I can`t stop myself! It would be time to understand already to some people that it`s silly to reproach me with it! U incite me against yourselves! My life, my hands..
3) Alex doesn`t come-it is visible absolutely a lot of work! I understand, but is all the same very insulting!
4)Cauz of trials with the script has not come on a meeting and the friend has taken offence at me! It it is a pity to me.
5) That I would do if at thinking was not my sister-emo Polly! I`m grateful to her for all very much! TODAY such dreadful day and if not her...
6) I Understand, that I again select people for dialogue! Has included the list of rigid requirements... I `ll disclose it only to 3 people...
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WTF! I`ve got confused! I don`t know what to do! Alex is in California `n` I want, that he would arrive, though I know, that all his promises - lies, that he won`t arrive `n` also it kills me. Mnusha has emerged again.Also delightful speeches have gone again, similar I`m really necessary to him. P... It is separate `n` sad story! I precisely that I`m not necessary to him, but me pulls to him! He`s the first guy,not emo, who is pleasant to me! Pleases, that all is clear with Hrom- all has ended here and it`s the fact. *SILENCE*
P.S. This photo from the Valentine`s day///
P.S. I begin to be happy! I remember Alex's words "Life is so presious to worry about stupid shit...(and so on)" and Mark's words "Do`t worry.Be happy " In fact I`m ready to obey u!
I am going to leave school, mum has put me before a choice: or to finish this school, or to finish this school in ,"extern", or any other school. I tend to other school,cause it`s more rational decision. On the one hand it wouldn`t be desirable to leave schoolmates, some of whom to me are very dear, but such it`s not enough - few people at school who I really respect. And the more so all sometime we will go on the way, and it`s better to reduce memories, that is and sufferings on a 2-3 years... Probably I`m not wholly feel this pain now.. A pain of loss, a pain of parting.. Here by the moment of the culmination there will be many emotions, and now almost the calmness of a boa. It`s very large part of my life and it lost- u won`t pull out it from the heart free.. Probably u will never it pull out... There is a hope, that I won`t be alone at new school ,cause someone will pass with me, or I will meet one of my friends there! In IT it WOULD be desirable TO TRUST! Never it would be desirable to be lonely... Especially at school, and in general I will cease to go in it. I put the next point. [500x626]
Light is needle in a haystack, darkness is hay, in which u is an unique needle
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Сейчас все только те и занимаются,что имитируют самодостаточность. Слово идеальное, по сути цель любого индивида и символ его превосходства. Все стремятся к нему. Но по сути пути к нему нет. И проблема лишь в том что все его имитируют его, тем самым искусственно создавая вакуум ,искусственную стену вокруг себя,, и тем самым отгораживаясь от всех прочих. Заявляя этим мне никто не нужен ,мне интересен лишь я сам, и всё что нужно есть во мне самом. Это наша Главная проблема. Имитируя то чего нет мы многое теряем, мы теряем даже возможность быть счастливыми, ведь то чего нет в нас самих, можно взять в другом человека, Не стоит всегда носит броню, от неё устает тело, мне кажется порой можно показать слабость, но не ироничную а настоящую. Можно плакать но не возводить в эмо пафос, можно грустить, но не выстраивать здание депресии, где самое важное не причина, а наличие её как модного акссесура.
От неискренности появляться пресыщенность. Почти любое чувство сначала немного потыкаешь ногтем подумаешь, А нужно сразу с разбега Бросаться в него.
А о самодостаточности, я знаю лишь всего одного самодостаточного человека, но он не выпячивает её, а он заинтересован в нас, хотя прекрасно может без этого обойтись.
Просто упростите вашу жизнь.......
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Аre they really footballers?
Even I don`t look so stupid `n` funny on the football grounds!
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Comedy Club
One of my favorite 'perfomances' of Comedy Club:Spilberg `n` country actor
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Если коровы начнут летать,
то мне в космосе делать нечего...