The devil has awakened, figuratevly speaking. We'll see what happens now. Will my angel save me yet again or has his voice lose it's meaning to my soul.
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Right now is an odd time in my life. Some wonderful choices to make... Freedom... I'm enjoying this although hurt is there for other reasons as well. All will be well. ;)
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В колонках играет - Gackt

Today was wonderful, great and sweet.
I was woken up by an offer to go to Pacific Mall to shop and hang out.
I had a great time with my bf. Upon arrival home my mom offered to go shopping as well but this time we went to a local cosy mall. It was very nice, we got me cute yellow slippers with pink lady-bugs on them and a pink soft pj's. :)
And now I'm just resting. :)

Song of the Sky...

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I just found an AWESOME graphic T site: www.threadless.com
LOVE it. ;)
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This is me when I was younger. :P
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Wanted to brag about my dress. We got it for my boyfriend's army ball this spring. :) Hope you like.
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В колонках играет - Ayumi Hamasaki - happy ending

I was in pain and had no medicine left. Hitai! I called him just in case he had any time because I couldn't go myself and my mom wouldn't come for quite some time. He asked his boss for a ride home, bought the medicine, then took his car and brought me the medicine. I feel all better now. :D Isn't he the sweetest?
Me made out a lot and it got pretty hot and heavy, lol. He says I'm like a drug but he is mine. :)
Now he's going out with a friend and I'm going to rest up and study French a bit. :)
He's my favourite silly ass. :)
>.<

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About cat. This is my cat and I love him. I think he's gorgeous. :)
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I kick ass, man!
Besides that two f. uped things happened today, lol. They were funny and weird too.
One: my boyfriend's army buddy (he's a little out of it, no offence to anyone) he saw me at university and started pretending like he's shooting at me and my girlfriend from an AK and then "threw" an invisible granade at us, LMAO!!! I called my bf, he cracked up too. Poor guy had to be that dude's firing partner for quite some time, hahaha.

Two: my professor got all freaked out because two black dudes got offended by what she teaches presumably and would come into one of her classes and threaten her and get all agressive. Anyhow, me working where I work I just can't efford to react to that kind of thing so I just made a joke related to what was going on to my neighbour and I started cracking up. She came up to me, asked my name and told me it's not really that funny and that she had a very stressful weekend. I said that I don't find THAT funny I simply was exposed to that kind of thing a lot and if somebody were to come in right now I would stab him in the eye with my pen, so she shouldn't worry. She didn't find anything to say to that so she just left it at that and after would only talk to those who would freak out as much as her. Fuck. Get a grip. Once u panic you're as good as dead. Besides, breaing news!!! you might die any day. Sheesh. End of rant. :)

Oh and one more: all these people from my past life want to talk to me and shit and I don't care, leave me alone!!! :D God! Besides it's people I've never been friends with... we never went out together and never hung out unless all like a cattle of cows LOL. Whatever:P They can kiss my ass, I'm not adding them on that special picture site. ;)
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I feel like I killed a mermaid or I got killed or something along those lines. It doesn't make much sense but I don't want it to. If I made sense of it all I would go completely insane or smth like that. In any case, my mood is in the picture. Nothing to say anymore, just waiting.
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I put time on pause. I worked and took an aromatic bath "Still life". And still life it is today. :) I want to just relax. Decisions?
I want to be free-standing like the Eiffel tower, stable like the Great Wall of China and free and tender like a bird. That's it. I think something inside of me has been born. I'm my own best friend now. I'm great. ;)
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Hiya. I have amazing news. :P One, my boyfriend gave me a promise ring saying it means that he will be with me all of his life. :D
Second, I had a blast today with my gf: we went to see Epic Movie (very funny), ate sushi, shopped at Lush, had coffee and laughed a lot. (welcome to the Twilight Zone, lol).Third, Naruto rocks. Cheers. Oh and school is easy, lol.
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Бабушка, он мне до сих пор снится…
- Внученька, вспомни прошлогодний снег.
- При чем тут прошлогодний снег? Я же совета у тебя хотела попросить, а не о погоде поговорить.
- А я тебе, внученька, его уже и дала. Если еще болит, если еще не до конца забылось, если вздрагивает еще внутри, то ты скажи про себя мысленно: «Прошлогодний снег». И относись к тому, что у вас было, точно также. Невозможно сохранить снежинку летом, внученька, - приходит и ей время растаять. И хоть тебе сейчас в это тяжело поверить, но обязательно выпадет новый снег. Просто доверься времени и дождись его, нового, свежего, чистого, первого снегопада. Но если ты еще тоскуешь по тому, что прошло, повторяй про себя: «прошлогодний снег, прошлогодний снег, прошлогодний снег».

Nothing Will Stop Me From Being With You. I Love You.
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I had an ackward conversation with my mom. She says I should tell our relatives I don't have anyone in my life and then after I should say that I had someone not serious and it ended just like my other relationships, for the same reason. I wonder sometimes if she wishes that was true...
I asked her what would happen if it didn't. She asked me if I'm considering getting married now. "What if I do?" - I said. "Then we'll tell them as it is" - she said.
Ackward. Anyhow, life moves on, I shouldn't waste time thinking about things like that. :) I still want to get some studying done today as well! Bye bye!

I can finally watch Chobits again! :D
Today I talked to my grandma for almost an hour, she is a very interesting person. :)
Tomorrow my boyfriend is taking me to my favourite Pacific Mall!:)

I had a great day yesterday. Although I couldn't sleep, my boyfriend was there to comfort me. He's my rock.
I had a great day in class although the lecture was a little boring. But we have a test next week.
Then my boyfriend and I bought this amazing white greek-goddess style dress for his army ball. I love it so much! :) It fits really well.
And then we took a shower at my place, had some personal time, cuddled, ate and the whole nine yard. :) He slept over and it felt very nice for both. :D
Today I'm really sleep-deprived, lol, but it was worth it, felt like heaven. :)
Also I took a very nice aroma bath and washed dishes like crazy. :P
Soon my mom and I are supposed to go shopping, wee.
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I feel kinda odd right now. I really hope this will pass though.

I feel like I can never forgive the person who was so close to me yet would hurt me like that physically and emotionally by saying I was in need to exercise, with no sense of fashion and that people would look at my funny, and talk about me, that I would embarrass that person. I thought I was past that but every once in a while I'm reminded of it all. I'm not sure I will ever forget. How I hope that I would. That person appologized a lot and felt bad and all, and probably would never do that now, but I still can't forget completely... This nightmare won't go away... Yet another night I can't sleep and I cry...

I really don't like when people around me start overreacting, getting irrational and letting their emotions rule the day, say stupid shit and then try and make excuses for themselves. I don't buy it. Shape up, get your shit together and, for the love of god, relax. Any rational human being will understand your point of view if you just say it once, but when I'm calm about whatever they think they're guilty of (usually imaginary since you just assume stuff) and the other person is tripping that's just not cool. Bottom line: RELAX, CHILL w/e works for you just don't get in over your head so that you're either an emotional wreck or don't make sense but usually both. Stay focused people, don't lose your cool, PLEASE.
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Everything's cool. I think I can finally be cool with stuff and just be who I am and who I wanna be. I can just relax, love my man and hang with my friends. Peace!