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OH! I can't beleive what has just happened.
I came home and I thought that Trefvor is home as usual... or enybody else. So I decided to enter the front door, like any normal person would do. I usued my key and then I heard the beeping. I knew that it means that I shoul turn off the alarm. Or police will come. I ran back to the front porch, to take the piece of paper with the password on it. It took me a while to find it, coz i have a lot of stuff in my backpack. Shouted "F**k!!!" I ran into the house to the alarm. Then.... the alarm started screaming. I'm not kidding. It became so loud. I think it was the loudest sound i've ever heard. I pressed the wrong button, coz I simply paniced, trying to close my ears,. I coudn't stand it! I didn't know where is backspace... Then I turned it off. I came out of the house and my frind was running to me. He was going to leave (he took me home), but then he heard the alarm. You can only imagine how loud it was. It took me about 5 minutes to calm down. UUUUUfffffff...... I'm glad he was there though.

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MarShizzel (0:21:18): Hey its working
raspberry07afs (0:21:37): yea, it is =)
MarShizzel (0:22:04): You doin homework too?
raspberry07afs (0:22:21): writing an email for my parents =(
MarShizzel (0:22:39): ha thats a good thing right?
raspberry07afs (0:23:02): yea, it's my first mail in 15 days
MarShizzel (0:24:17): whoa. How are they doin?
raspberry07afs (0:24:52): they're doing fine... busy with our new house
MarShizzel (0:26:41): yea I can imagine. Today everyone in school was asking me if I wanted to go with you when you go back to Russia.
raspberry07afs (0:27:07): ha, that's funny
MarShizzel (0:28:14): ha yeah I thought so too.
raspberry07afs (0:28:40): don't tell me this again, coz you're going to college!
MarShizzel (0:30:33): haha It wont be right after I graduate, and where ever I go to college is up to me.
raspberry07afs (0:30:46): sure
MarShizzel (0:31:56): Really! No matter where I go if you want me I'll be there =)
raspberry07afs (0:32:15): it's nice to know that =)
raspberry07afs (0:32:55): r u doing your homework?
MarShizzel (0:33:39): yeah im finishing it up. Then I have to stop by my job to get my check.
raspberry07afs (0:34:11): sounds cool
MarShizzel (0:35:33): ha not really. I'd much rather be relaxing.
raspberry07afs (0:35:47): me too!
MarShizzel (0:36:52): ha we should get more relaxing time!
raspberry07afs (0:37:16): I know.. life is easier without homework!!!
MarShizzel (0:38:28): I know thats right! I miss summer time..
raspberry07afs (0:38:52): that was a crazy summer
MarShizzel (0:40:50): ha yeah it was.. Oh before I forget, when you see Ashlyn can you ask her to call me.
raspberry07afs (0:41:02): sure
raspberry07afs (0:41:14): she's at home now
MarShizzel (0:41:33): really?
raspberry07afs (0:41:42): i think so
MarShizzel (0:43:06): alright, I just have to talk to her about something.
raspberry07afs (0:43:19): hm?
raspberry07afs (0:43:22): =)
MarShizzel (0:43:36): =)
MarShizzel (0:43:55): about stuff I've heard in school lately.
raspberry07afs (0:44:10): a.. ok
MarShizzel (0:44:36): have you heard anything?
raspberry07afs (0:44:51): about what?
MarShizzel (0:45:38): About Ashlyn?
raspberry07afs (0:45:53): no, what about her?
MarShizzel (0:47:27): nothin serious, just some rumors. I wanted to talk to her to make sure they werent true.
raspberry07afs (0:47:47): you're not gonna tell me?
MarShizzel (0:49:18): Well I wanted to make sure if they were true or not before I said anything.. but yeah I'll tell you if you really want to know.
raspberry07afs (0:50:18): no, you don't have to. You should make sure if it's true. And then you can tell me, alright?
MarShizzel (0:54:46): Yeah I will =)
MarShizzel (0:56:17): Thanks for understanding. Thats another reason why I like ya so much.
raspberry07afs (0:56:35): =)
MarShizzel (0:57:57): Alright well I should go get my check so i can get back and do some relaxing.
raspberry07afs (0:58:18): was nice to talk to u
MarShizzel (0:58:53): ha It was nice to talk to u too
MarShizzel (0:59:09): bye =)

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The weekend is over.
Tomorrow is monday.
Was a wonderful weekend.
Yesterday i went to the movie. Comebacks - typical american movie, commedy about American footbal. That was funny, but i didn't get all the jokes, probably because they were american. Some were pretty stupid, but still a bit funny. Then we went to the Spanish place. The food was really good =)
Then we went to M's house and hang out there for a while. Watched half of the "Hitch"'s movie. This is a cute movie.
Today went rollerskating. It was so cool. It is a building where you can rollerskating. There is music there and... discoballs =)
While I was rollerscating I remembered how Olesya made us jumping over the woodsticks. That was hard, but we made it! It makes me smile... i wonder how old we were... Don't remember exactly.
This week will be a spirit week! I'm excited. Monday is a Sports Day. Everyone is gonna wear t-shirts and sweaters of their favorite spors team.
I don't have any shirts for this day, but my friend is going to bring me his sweatshirt tomorrow. It's gonna be fun! I'll take my camera to school and make some pictures!!!!!
Love you!

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Yes! It is friday!!!!

I don't know what I'm gonna do this weekend. I have my pSAT tomorrow morning and I'll be completely free in the afternoon!!!
I'm so tired!!! The only nice thing today was whan somebody =) said "The day was so boring.. without u". And I didn't make it up =)
Yesterday I've been to art. There was a friend of my teacher. He asked me where exactly in Ireland I live. LOL. Then when he knew that I'm from Russia he said like about 7 times that I'm beautiful. The entire class he was telling me this. I have no hint why. He's quite old, bythe way! Anyway... He also said that Georgian girls are very beautiful too, but only who live in Russia. This is a very weird opinion.
haven't heard anyhting from my family... a long time. Pf...
Have a great weekend!!!!

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October 17, 2007, 21:49
If you're looking for Germany - Head for Siberia!
If you use a GPS navigation device in your car, be careful – because one day it might ‘take’ you to Siberia.
At least that is what happened to one woman in Germany, according to a local newspaper there.

She started off for a nearby town but got lost in the woods where her car got stuck. The woman used her mobile to call the police and tell them the name the 'intelligent' device was showing her.

The police told her it was taking her to a spot in Siberia and had to launch a rescue mission.

She was eventually found beeping her horn.

I don't understand. Today I just got mad! About 12 people told me today - oh, I saw you today... bla-bla... with this boy. Some black girls asked me his name. One girl said - is he black? I said yes. She said God bless you! Later one of the girls in my chorus class explained me what she meant. She meant that in our school some black girls do not like white girls talking to black guys. I thought it has gone a way to history, but it seems like NO. Is it a crime? I bet you pardon!? How can people can be this way?!?!? Yeah, we have in our school some "black kids" I'd like never talk to, but still, not all.
Was it like this in your school???? I need to calm down. He said that in a few days everyone will got used to us and it will go away. The nice thing that a lot of people I didn't know before come to me, talk to me, and say that they are his friends... or just smile and I know they are his friends.
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15th of October!! the first snow in Moscow!!!
Here is really warn and NO snow, rain, but.. it's sometimes foggy and chilly in the morning. Anyways.. Today is +25 - +27C! No joking. They say it's unusual to have such a good weather in October. Blame it on me...

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I didn't write anything for 6 days! Wow! I didn't notice.
I had a nice weekend though, on Friday I went to Kings Dominion with friends! I'm here for 2 months already and it was the first time i went out without Trevor or Ashlyn. That was fun.
On Saturday and Sunday my friend Cajsa from Sweden came over the weekend. All Saturday we spent in Meaghan's house (there were a lot of my other friends too.) Was really nice to introduce Cajsa to everybody, felt like - yes, i have friends! All Sunday we spent on Pumpkin Field. There was a lot of different activities. That's a pity we had to go home quite early. I came home and was doing my chores: vacuuming, dusting, cleaning, laundry... In the end of the day I got so upset!!!! I got an email from my parents, complaining that I haven't written anything to them recently. But... I understand them. I haven't written to them for a long time. Then I read li.ru notes of my sisters and got even more sad. I have the most the thing that I wanna know everything what is going on with them... all the news. We used to share everything. And now (sitting here) I feel really upset when I don't recognize the name of somebody's friend or a person they are talking about. I miss miss them. I MISS YOU SO MUCH! I'M THINKING OF U EVERY DAY!!!!!!!! Looking, no! STARING at the pictures.. when we were at the age of 6,7,8,9. I really miss it now. I want to go back. Even for a week. But it's impossible. Unfortunately =(
I didn't write much because i tried to keep me busy all the tyime wiuthout any free time BEING REALLY SAD. And because I can't remember some words in Russian. A few days ago I couldn't remember how to say confused. Coz I got confused! Last week a girl in my history class asked me how to say peanut butter in russian. I was like aaaaa.....a..hm... I got so frustrated!!! I was gonna cry.
Yesterday I was sitting on the floor in the family foom and said I want my mom!!!!!!!!! Hm....
I'm gonna be even more busy coz this Saturday I'm taking my pSAT and next week i'll have an SOL English test. And then is another SOL test and homecoming...

i made it!!!!

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I feel a little bit better now. Just trying to breath. It works.
Forgot to tell about some news.
I'm in the Fall Play! Yei!!!! Is's Shakespere. They also want me to dance a lot and sing. Difficult to imagine this play ready. It's deffinily a lot of work... I think it would be fun. It's fun so far.
Today ar PE I was shooting errors for the first time in my life. Remembered about the movie "Princess' Diaries 2" and "King Arthur". I shooted once almort in the middle of the target!! I was so excited! One boy told me "Oh, right here(pointed to his chest) you hurt my heart" Funny boy! Another boy in our group wasn't doing well. The phrase he said still makes me laugh - "I'm no Robin Good" =)
My mood today is like a roller croaster: up and down and up and down and again. Feels like I'm gonna puke =)

Just keep on breathing.......
PS: still hate the dog.

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Today is my parent's anniversary. I came home from school... talked to my BEST FRIEND for 5 minutes - then they went to bed. I miss them.
I decided to have a special lunch, to celebrate. I was alone at home, Trevor went to the dentist and etc. So I had soup and cookie that my parents sent me. I felt so happy, coz seemed I felt the connection with my family. Hm. And then something awful happened. I went to my room and what did I see there? Misty (dog) ate almost all packs of soup that my parents sent me. The soup and packs was all on the floor. I couldn't move, screem, even say anything... Later I thought "what is your fucking problem, dog?!?!?!?!" When I saw this picture in my computer.
AAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I'm so mad!!!! I'm angry!
I called my host mother and told her what happened. You know what she said? "You sould vacum, and don't leave the food on the floor." (The box WAS CLOSED)
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! I can't. Does she care? don't think so.
Feel so empty. Because I can't do anything about it.
I vacumed.
Now it smells like soup in my room.
Maked my sooooo mad!
I don't want to go out of my room anymore!!!!!!!!!
STUPID, STUPID, STUPID, STUPID, STUPID DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HATE HER.
I had a wonerful mood before it had happened.
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Привет,Алинчик!!!!! Это Оля Д. Я очень соскучилась. Как ты поживаешь? У меня все отлично. Тебе еще передавали привет Даша У, Лида, Вика Л, Оля Ф, Лера Ш и еще много кто. Помнишь, ты собиралась дать нам свои координаты перед отъездом-да так и забыли. Твой mail дала мне Даша У. Надеюсь, что ты обрадовалась письму. Пиши скорей! Я жду!

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Про бывших друзей...

Настроение сейчас - ностальгическое!

Странно... Но когда-то я считала,что дружба- единственное,что "Навсегда!".... но оказалось даже она проходит... ЖАль? нет... я немного была разочарована... не более... ну ладно! БОлее! НА много БОЛЕЕ! У меня была истерика, когда пережила первую потерю друга... Но потом всё это переживалось легче..
Первой потерей была очень прЫнципиальная девушка... Она резко и неожиданно ворвалась в мою жизнь и так же резко из моей жизни ушла... Нас познакомили родители, помню, как первый раз её увидела - я пришла к ним в гости, в гости к совершенно незнакомой девочке... с которой уже к вечеру варила снадобья из комнатных цветов и взбитых сливок, играла в парикмахера и спорила, кто громче кричит!))) Вскоре она стала мне самым близким человеком, я по 6 часов разговаривала с ней по телефону, рассказывала ей то,что не смогла бы сама для себя признать, обсуждала как ужасно то,что бомжи едят котов из её подъезда и устраивала концерт на даче и проводила ей "терапи. против блондинов!"
Как мы расстались.... Сложно сказать.... Просто в один день я поняла, что она изменилась и нам больше не по пути... Расстались без слез, как часто пишут в книгах... просто РАССТАЛИСЬ!.... Только потом, через месяц- другой, пришло осознание того,что я её потеряла....И я рыдала всю ночь, не смыкая глаз... А на утро смирилась...
теперь мы общаемся с ней по Асе... Это обычно милые беседы о музыке, погоде, лагерях... И о том, как мы изменились!... Она не любит вспоминать то,что было..Я её понимаю. хотя сама часто вспоминаю веселые минуты нашего общего детства!.....
Вобщем-то вторая ТЯЖЕЛАЯ потеря была не так давно, где-то пол года назад(да, именно тогда вобщем-то это и произошло!).... Это было тяжелее с одной стороны, и легче,т к я однажды это пережила...
оНа предала меня! Предала жестко!... Не хочу снова переживать это, поэтому не буду вдаваться в подробности... Это был ПАРЕНЬ.... вот и всё.... Но после этого я осталась с этим парнем, мне с ним даже хорошо было, с этой "подругой" мы вроде помирились, но ОБИДА... ЗЛОСТЬ!... остались.... Я просто никак не могла простить ей этот поступок, она всё время оправдывалась... но это не помогало, я даже хотела простить её, но у меня элементарно не получалось!... До... ПРЕДАТЕЛЬСТВА мы реально очень клево дружили, я даже начала её сравивать с сестричками(конечно одергивая себя при этом! Она не могла с ними даже сравниваться!), но потом короче мы стали всё время сраться, с нас все угарали, потому что каждую неделю мы орали, что мы больше не друзья! Потом был ещё один инцидент, и ВСЁ!... КОНЕЦ!Далее следовало слабое подобие дружбы... и вот всё!Вчера я ещё от стол головой билась ото того, как сильно она меня раздражала своим комментом, но сегодня я даже простила её за предательство, за повторное предательство и за то,что она считает себя центром вселенной! Мне пох... просто пох!.... И я СЧАСТЛИВА,что она наконец отстала от меня, т к поняла,что всё! ...... Наши дороги разошлись.... И только потому что "ей стало легче", она изменилась и далеко не в лучшую сторону, блин! И ЭТО ЗАМЕТИЛА НЕ ТОКА Я! Это заметила и Рудя! и мой милый Димочка, и даже немного её "брат" и... нет, пожалуй его тайну я выдать не могу!.... короче ладно, сина многа ей внимания

Следующая потеря.... это немного больше,чем потеря друга.... Но она неполная - частичная!.... Я потеряла свою сестру... ну то есть ту сестру, с которой я жила 8 лет, за год она изменилась! Измепнилась СОВСЕМ!.... Но я всё равно с ней! И всё равно я ей могу доверить такое, что не доверю дугим, хотя он, ЖОПА! об этом всем рассказывает, я почему-то всё равно верю ей! И ЛЮБЛЮ!!!! ОЧЕНЬ СИЛЬНО! И когда она выйдет за муж.... Я наверное сойду с ума!

Следующие две потери- на время но самые болезненные!- мои сестрички - сестренки- BFF! Этот год без одной был АДОМ! А ведь меня ждет ещё почти год без другой!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! МРАК!!!!!!!!!!!! Мне не хватает тебя, моя любимая! ОЧень не хватает! Кажется, я просто умру!!

Было ещё два друга, которых я больше никогда не увижу, и никогда не забуду! Спсибо вам, Лианочка и Мухамед! Вы были те полторы недели для меня самыми самыми близкими и родными! Вы единственные не бросили меня! Мухамед, я тоже люблю тебя! Я очень очень очень люблю тебя! И буду всегда любить и помнить тебя!И да, я была дурой! Я была просто идиоткой, что не была с тобой! Прости! И ещё раз я люблю тебя! А ты ЛИанка! Самая лучшая! Спасибо огромное! Люблю!
Жаль они никогда не прочитают этого(Мухаммед вобще русского не знает!.)... но я люблю их!... И больше не увижу....

спасибо всем моим бывшим и настоящим друзьям!

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Is it really happening?!
Well, I think so. He came back from Boston, I can't believe it's 10 hours driving. He gave me a suvenier! It is a glass thing. Looks like a piece of glass with 2 dolphins on it. Simbolic?... hm =)
He came by, didn't com in the house, we talked standing on the front poarch. Ashlyn was talking almost all the time,,, so we didn't talk personally. Ok. She was hugging me from time to time and said 3 times that i'm not allowed to go to the homecomming with him. And 2 times "Don't touch my woman!" Funny? She cares....

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I received an e-mail from her!
Have no idea where she is.
It's sad she changed her host family, but I hope things'll be better now...... pf....


Hi Alina!!!!!!!!This is Tanya!How are you?How is your english?How is your family? I have already changed my family,it is kind of difficult.My afs experience is very difficult.And if you know Vica`s e-mail could you write it to me!!!!!!Write me ,please.
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Tomorrow I'll know if I got a role in Fall Play. It is "Tvelfth Night" by Shakespere. I tried out last week. The Drama teacher seems likes me, we talked a lot about Russian Drama Plays writtent by Chehov and etc... Also he asked me if I drink vodka))))) That was funny. He also asked if I'm allowed to do that.
Actually the most popular question is "You are from Russia, right?... pause... So you speak Russian?!" I was asked this about 8 times already!!!!! I'm glad they don't ask me often: "How is your president, Stalin?" But probably not so many people know that the president of Russia is Putin... pf...
I can write a book about it.. Can be sucsessful!

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It’s funny to wake up and realize it is soon will be 6 in the evening Somewhere. I guess you all know where.
Yesterday I went shopping for Homecoming. I bought a really nice dress. The most comfortable dress I’ve ever wore.
Yesterday Ashlyn’s friends cane over to watch movies and I watched the movie with them. I can’t believe I watched Saw II. Oh! I’m surprised I didn’t have any nightmares… I’m definitely happy about it. Then we watched a comedy – the Russian translation is “a little pregnant.”
No school today. I am so glad! But I have tons of homework. And chores. We clean the house every Sunday but this time on Monday.

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I feel sad about her.
I didn't know her well, and it's even more sad to think that we'll never, never be closer then we used to be. I don't know a lot about her. Only what my friend told me. But I know one thing. This girl was told about only good things when she was alive. Always. Whan she was alive.
Some people, when they die only then are told good things. It's complicated.
It's hard to think about it, but the life is going on. It's not over.
It's difficult, but I can imagine how hard it is for her parents and close friends.
It seems I can feel the reflection of this pain. Because I compare it with my life and... I sarted to think about things I don't want to think at all. And words li IF... If I... If my friends... Parents...
I'll die If anything happnens. Like that.
Just wanted to ask you. Please! Take care.
And know that you have my love. It is with you every single day. Maybe it'll help to get though these days........... Hope. And pray. I will....
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